Afraid To Love Again

Just as the title Says

When I was 16, 

I fell in love with a boy, 

Who mended my heart, 

Cradled me in kindness I forgot existed, 

Doctor Who was our thing, 

I was his Impossible Girl, 

He was my Raggedy Man, 

I thought the adventure would never end, 

Music was the foundation of our friendship, 

One that didn't go far, 

He promised he would always be there, 

As I gave him the key to my wall, 

Covered in cobwebs, 

And a broken past, 

But soon he left,

Breaking my heart, 

Into Shattered Glass 

I am afraid to love again, 

As I fear if I show you my flesh, 

All you'll adore is what's on my chest, 

You won't see the sparkle in my eyes, 

Or the dreams I dream of at night, 

You'll ignore my passions, 

You'll forget my past,

What scares me most, 

Is that you'll become yet another ghost 

I am afraid to give you the chance, 

To tear down my walls, 

And explore the halls, 

Inside my past,

Filled with all my fears that I have collected over the years, 

Afraid of the knives that people put in my back,  

Followed by all the flashbacks 

Terrified you won't understand, 

Why I am distant at first, 

And why even a gentle touch, 

Hurts the most

I fear that you won't be patient as I open up, 

And will eventually just give up 

I overthink what you'd say if depression and anxiety came to play, 

If you'd look at me with my cheeks as red as fire, 

And eyes creating a stream, 

Tremble and fear of what comes next

I am afraid that you'll hurt me, 

But I know you won't 

But it's hard to love again

When your heart has been burnt