Regret rained away

At the beginning they were beside me,
At the end they can't see what I see,
I've walked beside everyone thats dear,
Now I'm walking by myself here,
I watch as the sun disappears,
As the night fills everyone's fears,
I listen to all the screams and the torment,
As their fears become dominant,

I can't do anything to help them,
For it's me that they have condemed,
So I watch as the blood spills,
Red goes the night as the moon fills,
I can't let my mind be clouded with distractions,
As I walk down this path of destruction,

As my path explodes with sin,
I remember the day I walked in,
Suicide note in hand,
Giving it to a uniformed man,
Knowing what was being done,
He handed me that gun,

It's not fair to those,
Who did not want to go,
But it sucks when you're the one being laughed,
Cuz you had to sign up for that draft,
Now with this troubled mind i walk down this road,
trying to clear off this heavy load,
I look back on those events,
as this fog starts to cloud up my sense,
Now as I stand in the middle of the field looking up at the raining destruction
I pull out my cup full of lifes regrets and lift it up high,
and pour it out on top of me as I get ready to die