Negativity

negativity does defeat

Negativity

first of all… 

she is extremely hard on self.

being a driven perfectionist 

always her twerk.

interrupted unaccomplished goals,

planned long-term even short-term

are exposed.

then…in steps negativity's 

strong will,

and her positivity it does kill,

in that day.

nevertheless..she is having a

decent week so far,

anticipating and riding on 

excitement.

putting her final touch on an

upcoming event,

things looked promising.

day of the event springing in.

so far, so good she commending.

although negativity is with she,

nipping at her feet,

chipping away at positiveness

in her brain. 

first part of the day running

smoothly.

massages her mind, it is soothing.

second part launching off 

into complete disaster, dismay 

and chaos,

all or nothing thinking it has 

brought.

negativity springs out like a 

jack-in-the box adding to the

madness.

opening it's toolbox and using

tools, disrupting, beating up 

and attacking her self-esteem,

once again.

failure makes her incomplete

as sheer defeat is setting in,

turning her world in that moment,

into a world of periling.

inside out and upside down,

her thoughts are swirling.

giving it all she has,

desperate to correct the ongoing

situation at hand,

she became confused and 

overwhelmed, thanks to negativity's

mighty helm,

with his pandora box of darkening

thoughts.

she could not take anymore,

fleeing and

retreating to her safe place,

alone.

negativity was following right behind,

still instigating, making 

things even worse than ever,

intense and escalating.

hanging over her shoulders,

negativity is yelling

in a high volume voice.

putting her hands over her ears,

waiting for negativity to disappear,

it kept on without letup,

provoking.

now...a dark cloud of depression 

now approaching.

choking her, smothering her,

engulfing her into hopelessness.

she is hiding under her bed sheets.

self-esteem wounded 

and bleeding,

pretty much feeling defeated,

or could it be self-sabotage

involved, within she,

building herself up to fail,

a twisted punishment,

a well deserving affair.

alas…it is a daunting task,

staying in the present moment,

keeping herself intact.

it is an exhausting struggle 

and an enduring battle in fact.

past life disasters are camping 

at her door, furlong.

suddenly…

being stuck in a 

quicksand trap of the past.

unpleasant memories repeating.

uncertainty of future things 

she is abhorring,

trying to reach a daily, monthly 

and yearly crossing of 

a goal post.

unfortunately, negativity's 

strategic play deems.

intercepting, ripping apart 

any feelings of victory.

such a pain, she is complaining.

her efforts are in vain.

surrendering, wanting to giving up,

negativity surely gaining.

she is left with an empty soul,

rotting to the core in this moment.

Author's Note

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