Welcome To My World (edit)

Introverted living in an extroverted world.

Welcome To My World

twelfth sign of the Zodiac, 

play an important key,

process many traits,

characters of eleven before me.

constant battle within, 

must choose how I can feel.

others have hard time, 

trying to figure out my zeal.

these fierce fights, 

always forces me 

to think before I act,

a proven fact.

thoughts are very thorough, 

careful before I react.

sometimes,

indecisive and impulsive, 

but always thinking ahead,

with open mind, 

and willingness, 

trying new things instead.

force myself to adapt, 

uncomfortable situations,

prepared.

find it's such a struggle.

duck and dodge, try to fight off, 

impending fear or trouble.

plan, seek new experiences, 

put them into action.

sharing findings with others, 

fills me with satisfaction.

compassion for other's,

can be excessive, 

but t's truly genuine.

others are in pain or stress, 

feel it deep within.

sometimes so confused, 

can't distinguish fantasy from true.

retreat to mind, 

where I can daydream,

for a while, 

finding answers due.

hard fitting in extroverted pearl, 

their world so perfect. 

being an inward person,

in an outward world,

trying to make connection.

tired and exhausted, 

need me time, alone time, 

so I will go.

need space to breath,

outward world smothers me.

want to be like others, 

but must remain true to myself.

making this plea, 

just to be understood, 

not judged that i'm wrong.

inherently introverted,

it's okay if I'm this way.

don't like to speak,

unless, have something to say,

am a good listener,

by all means, anyway.

don't like a lot of small talk,

these are my thoughts.

or beating around the bush,

or forcefully pushed.

please don't be put off,

by my standoffish nature, 

this is only me,

trying to deal with society.

not stuck up, aloof, antisocial, 

unfriendly or unapproachable,

not really shy or afraid of people,

on the outside. 

reason to interact is needed. 

gentle approach works for me, 

more at ease, that is a fact.

sometimes giving off a mask, 

warning people not to approach,

this is such a task,

protecting self from getting hurt,

or taken advantage of,

disconnected feelings, involved.

never being rude or unsociable, 

only trying to cope.

when trapped or threatened, 

will simply run away, retreat.

don't like confrontation, 

only love peace.

nevertheless,

hard to deal with, 

this is my take.

can count close friends,

on one hand, intensely value them.

trusted, and my true friend,

will be loyal ally to the end.

phony relationships,

will breakdown and bend.

don't go out in public for so long, 

maybe one or two hours, 

want to prolong.

just don't feel I belong.

avoid complications 

in public places,

and group activities. 

some may become sour,

thats quite enough for me.

take in, process life experiences

very quickly, 

no need for me to be there long,

I get it, what is going on.

polite exit it shall be.

usually say goodbye, so long.

make decisions based on intuition,

feelings and gut notion.

may need a push to follow through, 

there is much emotion.

sit and think a lot,

overwhelmed with thoughts.

dream because i'm a dreamer,

an intense perceiver.

perfectly comfortable with my 

thoughts, who I am,

and what I believe in,

and what life is about.

have new ideas,

always popping in my head,

must have plan of action,

to move them ahead.

sharing findings, answers, 

and discoveries,

just to see a reaction, 

gives me real satisfaction..

don't follow the crowd, 

prefer being valued,

for novel way of living.

helping and giving,

is my style.

an individualist, 

like thinking for myself, 

doing things my own way,

thumbs up, it's okay.

not a follower or leader, 

leaders must compete,

convince others to follow.

too much pressure,

finding it hard to swallow.

function by different beat of drums, 

often challenging what is normal.

decisions never based on trend,

but sheer simplicity.

craving an authentic, 

sincere connection, 

with one person at a time, 

one on one,

exciting, fun. 

need my space at times.

refuel, reboot, rest mind.

don't like too many people 

flocking around me,

feeling smothered, 

more than others.

just because,

don't socialize too much,

does not mean I'm anti-social. 

don't have time for drama,

or fake people, 

only positive, 

completely drama-free.

not a thrill seeker, 

or loud-mouth speaker.

relaxing at home, 

or in nature, 

is my scene.,

not busy public places.

taking time, 

getting to know me first,

is very important.

allowing my inward,

to shine outward

as if I were a beacon, 

I'd feel so complete.

giving me a chance, 

don't judge based on 

outward appearance.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I liked your thoughts and logic in the poetry.
"taking time,
getting to know me first,
is very important.
allowing my inward,
to shine outward
as if I were a beacon,
I'd feel so complete.
giving me a chance,
don't judge based on
outward appearance."
The above lines should be the norm for all people. Judge people by their actions and their words. Thank you Celie for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Kunda]

Nice poem, found I could relate to it in more ways than one

[Hiroshi Masters]

Growing up as a child I had no issues being introvert. I was an extrovert.

Today Im homeschooled and 21 years old, trying to get out and be more friendly. I simply cant do because I am is who i am.

Thanks...

[Ellay]

Quite an interesting poem! Loved it!

[MelissaAndres]

I identify with this on so many levels! I am by nature an introvert too - I was EXTREMELY that way back in high school. I would much rather be alone than in a room full of people. I love to read and write when others care nothing about it. My husband of 15 years is very much an extrovert so he has brought me out of my shell quite a bit. He is hilariously funny and people are just drawn to him. I do wish I could be more like him in that respect but it's just not me, I guess. So, I completely understand where you are coming from. There is nothing wrong with being an introvert, you just have to deal with us differently. Nicely done!