Does it seem as if I’m dreamin’ ?

It’s a poem that can be construed in many different ways but to me it’s about my eternal struggle with sleep and the thoughts that come into focus when away from the distractions of daily life.

Does it seem as if I'm dreamin',
When I lay my head at night,
Or can you hear me screamin',
As I face my biggest fight,

Pictures of the past replayed,
A revolving reel of pain and dread,
An untold war taking place in the shade,
On a field of a pillow where I lay my head,

A relentless battle between good and bad,
With the only outcome guilt,
An endless torment designed for the mad,
A straight jacket for a quilt,

Locked in a darkness where no light has shined,
Regret and anguish with no release,
A blackness deep inside my mind,
A tortuous turmoil with no relief,

So does it seem as if I'm dreamin’,
When I lay asleep in bed,
Or can you see the demon,
That I fight inside my head..