She was just a child

I saw myself walking angrily into my room and slamming the door. Sitting with my back faced to the door so no one can get in - Fredapsychic

“Stop it Freda, her mom said, drop that toy, don’t play with the neighbors kids, don’t go there, don’t say that, her mom screamed this child is too stubborn, come here, don’t go there”.
She was just a child
She’s not an evil child
She’s a smart and inquisitive child
A child that wanted to be free to play and express herself like the birds in the sky
Flying all day, freely
She wanted to be free
Free to play
Free to be herself

For a moment i went back to my childhood, i saw myself walking angrily into my room and slamming the door
Sitting with my back faced to the door so no one can get in
I had another flashback, after an encounter with her parents, she sat outside under the rain, it was pouring heavily and she looked into the sky and said to the Sky God “Take my life, I don’t want to live anymore”. She was made to believe that there’s a God and that God lives in the sky, way up in the sky and she screamed asking this God to take her life but nothing happened. She went back inside the house with a lot of anger
Now she’s grown with that anger, the God she was looking up to was inside her, listening. She was talking to herself, the creator.

Her parents stopped her from playing as a child
She wasn’t allowed to play
She wasn’t allowed to say how she felt
She was just a child
A child that wanted to play
A child that wanted to be seen
A child that wanted to be heard
She was just a child that wanted to be free
Now she is growing
She is playing like a child
She is saying how she feels
No more torture
No more hiding
No more telling her not to speak
She’s grown now and her inner child speaks
Speaks loudly
As loud as the birds chirping
She’s free
Free to be herself
Healing trauma inflicted on her by her parents
Shes’s healing and playing
She’s playing
She’s free
She’s saying how she feels
She’s no longer hiding the dark parts of herself
She embraces her darkness so the light shines through
Day by day, healing, cleansing and listening to her inner child, comforting her and reminding her that it’s okay
You’re safe now
You’re free now, Freda
I love you, I’ve always loved you and I’ve always been here listening to you. You just had to look within said; the creator.