The Boy and The Beast

Feeling especially self-pitying and dark at the moment so I spun together this rambling dark s**t

Ending the journey on a high note never seemed like an option,

Forever floating in the imbalanced concoction of emotions that flow through my mind as I'm striving to leave behind all the struggles I created by living so blindly,

Now someone might seek but I doubt that they'll find me;

In spite of the growth I still feel f*****g tiny, and all of the kind words just seem to remind me of who I have been and all that I've done;

A terrible friend and a far worse son,

It's affection I crave but I see it and run fast; my past has taught me it won't last,

Cause every failed connection just evolves into a relapse, and each potential future ends in darkness,

A truth cast in iron and stone,

Born to face this alone and to die on a throne built from sins that I never atoned for,

At home in a foreign war that should never affect me but still serves to disconnect me from all of your passions and struggles and joys,

Faint glimmers of hope only tempt me and toy with my weak mind,

Still I find the strength to sustain my employment while being battered by my own f*****g brain,

There's a beast that I swore I would never see again but I was lying to myself because we share the same name.