...come meet me

Inspired by: Coldplay- Scientist “Boyce Avenue feat. Hannah Trigwell acoustic cover

Verse 1: 

I wish he would come meet me. I mean I know he would…..If he could just see me.

I need him; I don’t believe he’s gone, I know he wouldn’t just leave me.

I need to find him, it’s been too long! I need to feel his hug squeeze me.

I need to see him smiling, remind him, he’s loved deeply.

So much for us to discuss, I won’t give up easy.

Until I feel his touch, I’ll say f**k speaking.

Feelings I bottle up, I write for only one reason/

I write because s**t I would write my brother loved reading/

Never forget them nights, world was existing with just the two of us breathing/

I miss the little stuff, cause the little stuff had meaning/

Like hooking him up when he say “blood I’m hungry, what we eating”/

I miss being in public greeting, watching the way his eyes light up once I seen him/

I miss hearing about what he thinking,

telling me how he was really in love, believe him/

Then the next weekend saying she dumb as f**k, and leaving/

I miss taking care of him, when he was throwing up from drinking/

It’s crazy but what I miss most is throwing a cover on my brother sleeping/

I even miss the bad stuff, like the months we wasn’t speaking/

Why? Cause I knew all I had to do was hit him up, and he knew what I needed/

I miss his voice so much, I’m so numb from grieving/

It’s true, he was younger, but he was always the one I looked up to being/

It’s about to be his birthday, so I thought I say I love him, believe me this s**t isn’t easy…..

Verse 2(Mothers Perspective):

Son, I wish you would come meet me. I’m ready to be your mom/

Will you squeeze me? Please bring amnesia to my grieving arms/

I’m sorry for the tears, I’m sorry for not being strong/

I’m sorry for the years I disappeared, I finally see I’m wrong/

You believed in me when I didn’t, had shoulders I loved leaning on/

I miss the glow you had with ironed clothes and new sneakers on./

Can you blow air into my corpse? One time……. please for mom?

Why? So I can feel alive! I’m dying inside from just keeping on/

If I could redo everything, I wouldn’t even think beyond….

The opportunity to seize, the meaning beaming in the most unique of bonds/

And when you say “what’s bothering you”, because I seem withdrawn/

Before I say nothing, because I would love nothing more to keep you calm/

I’ll tell you every detail, until every single secret dawns/

You gave me real love, more than I can feed upon/

Your love was a puzzle, I struggled to put my finger on/

Now I know just how much I love you, but it’s too late because every piece is gone/

Your brother barely sleeping, I know what he based his reason on….

He says “why sleep? When every single one of my dreams are gone”/

But I can tell writing brings him close to you, It’s easy to see when I read along/

Sometimes I can’t take it, it so Heartbreaking to read the songs,

The impact from you leaving spawned

Your nephews wish they met you, it’s sad watching your sons mom lead him on/

Your nieces are the sweetest and your sisters exceeding what it means to be a mom/

Nobody said it was easy, and it’s not son…..

I love you, this is your mother….I’ll be here forever, whenever you want one/ 

Reviews

[Marianne Rose]

The heartbreak and longing really come through, and I love the two voices speaking from different perspectives with different rhythms and words.
There are some really special lines that capture that inexplicable grief of someone absent in our daily lives:
I miss taking care of him when he was throwing up drinking
It's crazy but what I miss most is throwing a cover on my brother sleeping
And
You believed in me when I didn't, had shoulders I loved leaning on
I miss the glow you had with ironed clothes and sneakers on

Wow- these really say it for me- I cover my husband sleeping almost every night- if he were gone, it would be one of the things I missed most. And the simple way a person looks in certain clothes- that's irreplaceable too.
The unique rhythm you have is an undercurrent to your words that really ties it all together. Great and interesting read!

[Rico]

Thank you for reading, I really appreciate the feedback