Decisions are harder than Mistakes

I keep replaying every moment he's with me,

I savor the second he kissed me,

He's the only thing that feels better than this knife,

I just want him to stay in my life,

His hug; it feels greater than the drip of my blood,

I gravitate towards him;literally,

He smiles and I feel jittery,

Just from him randomly touching me,

This is how I wish it could always be,

But I keep thinking this will end sooner than later,

And I suddenly have all these haters,

I just wanted to have something nice,

But than it goes and gets fucked up for Jesus Christ!

I'll try a little longer,

God,I wish I was stronger,

I've wanted him forever,

Now I'm bout to fall on that s****y lever,

I'm getting a headache,

on top of a heartache,

Thinkin about blowing f****n hearts out of my head with a gun,

Instead of trying to run,

This is gonna take some precision,

S**t boy,Why are you such a hard decision?