why not me

Just something I wrote while worrying

My body shakes as i hope she didn't get shot
And to make it worse the suspect didn't get caught
So if it was her I'm not religious but if there is a god please let her be alright
I feel guilty that I was not able to take the bullet
Thinking back to when I wrote I would give my life to save hers any day or any night
Now feel like empty words
So again please I hope it wasn't her
Cause in fact I still feel she's my Savior
Even though its hard to talk to her it feels like fate
That one day we will be together no matter how late it is in life
Tonight my heart cries louder than ever and forever will
Until I'm able see her safe and sound in the real
It was only a leg shot but its hurts thinking she lost blood and shed tears
While I'm here feeling like a b***h unable to call and put a rest to my fears
Is only a sign that I don't deserve her In this this life
~ForeverTheLoner~