24th of december

something i found in my phone so i decided to finish it

December 24th such a starry night
snow falling So pretty and white
its christmas eve but im not home
walking down the street cold and alone
nothing with me but my phone
and a picture of the woman I want to be in my life
staring at it o god her beauty cuts me like a knife
i cant take it anymore I put picture away
i wanna talk to her but I don't know what to say
pulled out my phone and sat on a snowy curb
"reine"....is all I can manage to type before the memories of the past start to flood my mind
like the time she told me that I didnt fight for her
followed by the marriage that will haunt me forever
i wish I could of fought but I didn't know how
at least I know what I want to say now
"Reine....I know that u probly wont reply
and if u do its probly gonna be with a sigh
but I really miss you
and im sorry for leaving
after everything that uve done
and i hope u can forgive me for everything
especially since These feelings have nothing good to bring
i have tons of regrets since ive met you
but the biggest regret is falling in love with you"
i stand up hesitating to hit send
I manage to send it to her after taking a long breath
not looking up from my phone I fail to look to my left
i begin to cross the street just as a car is coming my way
the driver dosen't see me
and I look up as its too late
the car smashes into memy life flashes before my eyes
her image is the last thing I see before I realize
that im semi alive my body broken and bloody I hear a faint voice asking me if im okay
i pay no attention to it im busy staring at my phone
theres a message from her I manage to grab it and read ...my heart is broken from what it says cause I know im gonna die alone "no please don't regret it ive been longing for your love I just didn't want to hurt you for im cursed from above
all relations that I have all seem to crash and burn
but deep inside my heart has a deep yearn
for you and I want to be with you dont stop loving me for I have always loved you"
with tears down

my face I text back im sorry I would love that but i..i....i
my body goes limp and all light in my eyes fade the phone falls in the snow before I can press send
my life comes to an end
~Forever TheLoner~