till my hands break

crushing hard

In a blank state of mind ima hit the wall till my hands break
i dont give a f**k anymore cause I cant take
seeing her everday as my eyes glance over her soft brown skin
knowing I cant talk to her hurts me from within
and to make it worse shes always on my mind haunting me making me feel more alone
sometimes I just wanna grab a knife and slit my wrist to the bone
bleed out everything every feeling that I ever had
i may die but thats not so bad
as long as I dont have anymore dreams
where im looking into her eyes and holding her hand as tears run down her face
under the full moon she puts her head on my shoulder as I wrap my arms around her waist
its like a perfect world untill I wake up and remember that dream was nothing more than a lie
sitting up I let out a soft sigh
as I look at my hands they each look so alone
so thats why I will hit the wall till my hands break 
what do I need them for ill never be able to hold hers in mine
~forever theloner~
*cursed to be forever alone*