I am Murdered and Alive

I am murdered and alive,

I wonder how I survive,

I hear him walk past me everyday,

I see him turn a blind eye,

I am murdered and alive!

I pretend that I'm blissful inside,

I feel that one day he'll realize,

I touch the roses and a hope does rise,

I worry, maybe I'm duping my life,

I cry each each time he looks at me with hateful eyes,

I am murdered and alive!

I understand he does not feel that way,

I say one day everything will change,

I dream one day I'll be his bride,

I try to smile with this thought in my mind,

I hope one day the roses will bloom bright,

I am murdered and alive!

Author's Note

Well........wrote this for "I AM" contest! Lets see if it turns out to be good! So what do you guys think?
The formula:

I am (two special characteristics you have).
I wonder (something you are actually curious about).
I hear (an imaginary sound).
I see (an imaginary sight).
I want (an actual desire).
I am (the first line of the poem repeated).

I pretend (something you actually pretend to do).
I feel (a feeling about something imaginary).
I touch (an imaginary touch).
I worry (something that really bothers you).
I cry (something that makes you very sad).
I am (the first line of the poem repeated).

I understand (something you know is true).
I say (something you believe in).
I dream (something you actually dream about).
I try (something you really make an effort about).
I hope (something you actually hope for).
I am (the first line of the poem repeated).
So what say???????

Reviews

[Arsh]

Well, you sure would have lived upto that contest's expectations expected from you. For a while, I just thought, it was all you in your words. But when I read your 'Author`s Note' .. it all changed my points of views. Very good. You're a creative story-teller. The pain of wounded heart's all what I find in your poetic verses written by your beautiful hand. Nice flow of ink!

[Flutterby aish]

thank you! :)

[junaid altaf]

i would simply say
it is one of your best!

[Flutterby aish]

Awww..........thankyou! It means alot!

[junaid altaf]

you deserve it...........

[Flutterby aish]

:) thnx!

[Coyote Poetry]

Great use of words. I like the repetition of the words. "I am murdered and alive!". Gave strength and purpose for the poem. Sometime our emotion can make us want both in the same second. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Flutterby aish]

N thankyou for reviewing!

[CreativeCookie]

Love it! I entered the same contest, just for fun! Anyhow, I love how your poem tells a story and expresses such feeling, great job.
Love,
CreativeCookie

[Flutterby aish]

Actually.......u were the one one who lead me to this contest! I didnt know bou it but i got a news feed that u entered this one n i randomly checked n this ws the result! I'm glad u liked it!

[Aehr]

I loved it! And doesn't this match your current situation? haha :D Great job sweety :D

[AJ TheSnowMan]

i know nothing of the contest to be quite honest but i really do love this poem though :)

[Flutterby aish]

Hahaha........Thanx alot...........I'm glad you liked it!!!:D

[AJ TheSnowMan]

anytime :)