The Things That I Felt For You

The devil wore a halo.

You saved me from this place,

Where I was born,

And hid my face.

In this house of cold floors,

Boards on windows,

Locks on doors,

You sheltered me from the ceiling that collapsed,

From the things that would hurt me,

From my own relapse.

And when the tables turned against me,

You didn't have to look,

And I knew you could sense me,

And that look in your eyes,

When you knew that I wanted to die,

You couldn't just lie,

And say that I'm fine,

Or I'll be alright.

You had to defend me.

You knew that the things that I felt,

The things that I couldn't talk about,

The things that hurt like hell,

Were more real than anything else,

And I could tell.

I was crying for mercy from whatever was out there,

And asked for a light at the end of the tunnel,

But if there's a God,

He didn't seem to care,

And then you came along,

And suddenly,

Though I wasn't aware,

The gaps where pieces of me were torn away,

Were no longer bare.

They were filled with something,

Something I had never felt before I met you,

And even with all the girls around you,

It feels like only one heart could ever get you.

You're warm,

And I'm cold,

We're torn,

But we're bold.

I miss you when you're away,

I'm worried when you're not okay,

I think about you every day,

And god I got so much to say.

I was sitting in the tub thinking about my life before I loved you,

Crying myself to sleep every night before I loved you,

Wishing I could stab myself with a knife before I loved you,

But now I see a halo above you.

When you're with me,

I know nothing's gonna hurt me.

 At least that's what I thought,

Until you went and stabbed me in the back,

And burned me.

Author's Note

Betrayal is always painful.

Reviews

[sette]

it is really painful but still a part of life where we have to accept and learn to trust again. It is a very strong poem, it made me smile with anticipation on how the poem will end and of course it ended with an irony which makes the poem unique.