Sometimes I will just smile

Sometimes I will just smile,

I do this instead of speaking,

Because whilst my mind is vile,

My voice will just end up creaking.

You ask me to express

What is happening in my mind,

I'm just a giant mess,

Hoping you'll leave it behind.

Sometimes my hands will shake

As I struggle to get dressed;

This time I'm going to break,

So you pull me into your chest.

Feeling you makes me forget

All my insecurities;

With you, I will not die yet,

Despite all my impurities.

I pull you nearer,

Wanting to feel my skin against yours,

It's all becoming clearer,

Maybe I will try the cures.

Despite the warmth I feel,

My feelings are still unexpressed;

It's really hard to heal,

When I'm still not feeling my best.

Sometimes I will just smile,

I do this instead of speaking,

To allow you peace without rile,

For my problems are slowly leaking.