Numb

No thoughts, no feelings, no pain. I still know I'm dying.

I'm wishing for aching, knowing my heart is breaking,

When my world is still stuck under your thumb

There's blood in my hair, how did it get there?

Sometimes it kills you to be numb.

 

...

 

If it was love, it should feel sent from above

Not like I'm drowning in the midst of a storm

I'm cold to the bone, I know I'm lost and alone

All I remember is your comfort was warm.

 

I'm wishing for aching, knowing my heart is breaking,

When my world is still stuck under your thumb

There's blood in my hair, how did it get there?

Sometimes it kills you to be numb.

 

...

 

When you occassion'ly care, the times increasingly rare

I can't help myself from getting love-drunk

I hear the fire, don't feel, and I know this won't heal

Like a battleship hit, now I'm sunk.

 

If it was love, it should feel sent from above

Not like I'm drowning in the midst of a storm

I'm cold to the bone, I know I'm lost and alone

All I remember is your comfort was warm.

 

I'm wishing for aching, knowing my heart is breaking,

When my world is still stuck under your thumb

There's blood in my hair, how did it get there?

Sometimes it kills you to be numb.

Author's Note

I sang this like I Drown, if you've read that. I know you haven't, but still.

Reviews

[Mauricio Montoya]

I like how this piece comes together we all have had these moments of despair.
Excellent write.

[J.M]

Its beautiful, I guess its also quite dark and depressing but I really like that. You've really got that feeling which I know all too well of feeling kind of cold and empty. Like you cant even feel yourself any more.

[Skye Fields]

Lovely. And many congratulations for your functional rhyme scheme! No, not just functional--beautiful. Such a wonderful flow, especially in the "wishing for aching" chorus. "There's blood in my hair, how did it get there?" is haunting and melodious, and "...my world is still stuck under your thumb" is so vivid AND visceral that I felt slight physical pain while reading it. Don't worry; I'm still alive!

Anyway, you do a marvelous job of capturing the frustration that accompanies that no-feeling zone, that terrifying abyss that goes beyond small-time depression. Fabulous work.

[An owl on the moon]

You fill the page with profound emotion, expressed through an intimacy of your thoughts. I can relate to the numbness.. sometimes it seems so much better than the pain.. But to feel nothing for so long.. yes.. after awhile one doesnt even feel alive anymore. Amazing write.

[Blue tailed kite]

Wow... this is really amazing,
If it was love, it should feel sent from above
Not like I'm drowning in the midst of a storm

There's blood in my hair, how did it get there?
Sometimes it kills you to be numb.
This is a really great write

[Khaaki]

wow... d poem shows how strong ur thinking is n how easily words flow from d bottom of your heart onto d paper... amazing write