Struggling to say

Just a free verse

I have been struggling lately…

With words;

The shape of things;

Meaningful expression…

And the futility,

Of conveyance within them.

 

I feel like a water balloon,

Bloated with undefined motions

Threatening to burst

If I can’t find

A means to allow

It to flow

in a trickle,

Onto the paper!

Just one pin prick away…

From grammatical annihilation.

 

I could simply say

That

Having been

a past tense

that I, almost, never

miss a chance

to tell you

how much I love you

and that I recommend that approach

because once, I wasn’t able

to utter those magnificently

simple lines.

 

I could say

That the next time, you swallow

a cup of coffee;

a morsel of food;

or a sentence,  

Pause a moment

to drink it up

roll it around

in your mouth

to savor its taste

revel in the flavors

for once…

I could not.

 

Though my muddled mind

Has yet to fully recover

And my scrawl has suffered

As I have lost my voice

And I can no longer sing

My heart,

does yet… still

and all I really wanted to say

was to wish you

a Merry Christmas

and I hope

that you relish 

all that these holidays

have to offer!

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

I take it here you are referring to the serious health crisis you endured. You make a good point. The things we take most for granted, like speech, can be taken away in a heartbeat. Thus an ongoing state of gratitude is the appropriate mindset for all of us.

[Robert Trakofler]

if you would have asked me how long it would take to recover I would have never thought it waould be this long old friend these themes keep coming back because i am still not fully back but my heart is... my mind must surely follow

[Chris Shaw]

It is wonderful dear Bunny to find you here again. A lovely, thoughtful, heartfelt piece. I hear you loud and clear, you have not lost that part of you. Thank you, thank you for reaching out and embracing us with your warmth for Christmas and the holiday period. Sending every blessing to you dear man and all the best for 2024.

Chris

[Robert Trakofler]

Thank you dear Chris

[Cherrie]

People need to hear your thoughts and feelings. Life is all to often hard and we can be stripped away from what we know. Reading how someone else navigates these: fears-pains- and losses. Give strength and hope. Not to mention and courage.
You will find a new way of expression that will feed your soul and those that encounter you.
Much love Cherrie

[Robert Trakofler]

Oh Cherrie I am so sorry I missed this review! I have some recordings of my voice that I keep on the restaurant/stores playlist so when they come on they make me happy but I will never be able to sing again only in my scrawls LOL

[Beccy]

Your voice is not lost in the least. Your inner thoughts are expressed here perfectly and encapsulate how sometimes even the most erudite find it hard to pen the words spinning around in that fascinating and so incredibly complex universe we call the brain.

Enjoy 2024 and all it brings.

Beccy.

[Robert Trakofler]

Beccy:) :) How are you? it's so nice to hear from you! I miss my friends in this place I am still running my store and it takes so much more time to do things I used to do I just don't get to the cafe as much as I'd like!

[Ted Kniffen]

May your new year be healthy ... your mind clear ... your voice reclaim it's timbre and your heart resound with joy.

Will be lookimg forward to more bunnyisms.

Take care my friend.

[Robert Trakofler]

(Like my brain) To make things a bit more difficult... my computer is broken LOL it keeps losing things when I try to search for an old file or a picture and I have to go a circuitous route to find them:/ The irony of this conundrum has not escaped the bunny's mind LOL

[jacob erin-cilberto]

your heart will always sing, brother bunny...and your words will be a legacy.
j.

[Robert Trakofler]

hey brother Jacob I am trying old friend

[Stella Armour]

Ah , lovely Bunny it is so good to see you posting ..

Whatever you do or don't do just enjoy the day tomorrow with your family xx

[Robert Trakofler]

Hello stella

[Stella Armour]

hello my lovely ..... so good to be in touch again x

[Gee]

We sometimes need a kick up the arse, though not the near death experience you suffered, to open our eyes to the everyday beauty of life and those we share it with.
May your recovery continue sir and 2024 be kinder, gentler with you.
Have a lovely Christmas

[Robert Trakofler]

Hi how are you:) every minute is a blessing old friend I’m not complaining things just come a bit harder now