A story.

...The story of a girl. She's been sick for a very long time but they can't find anything wrong with her. She's decided that she must be crazy, yes. Absolutely bonkers.

Help.

My mind hurts all over,

My eyes will not stay open

My chest is constricted

I cannot move

I cannot breath

I cannot do anything at all.

A sick girl with a broken body,

And dying organs.

It would seem that there

Is nothing wrong…

And yet there is no cure.

Falling apart with every day,

No one seems to notice

When they do, they do not care.

The girl does not care either,

She requires it of herself to waste away,

She begs for it to happen.

The doctors do not see,

The teachers do not understand.

Her mind is empty,

MY mind is empty.

She/I writes words,

But has no memory of them.

I flow throughout unsure.

Here but gone,

Fingers losing momentum,

Heart beat quiet,

Happy to be leaving,

Loving as she wastes away…

Reviews

[TillingBuckle50]

I feel like i can relate to this..

[Fish]

D: oh lord I hope not... D: I'm sorry if you do...

[TillingBuckle50]

thank you. i know this all too well is the sad part.. i also love your hair and your name. and i'm asexual as well. nice to meet you lol

[Fish]

I'm sorry that you know this too well... :/ I was really hoping it was just my towns doctors that can't fix people... hah thank you! ^_^ I like your username :P blah I'm so happy I meet so many Asexual people on here :D ^_^ Nice to meet you! :D

[TillingBuckle50]

You too! Are there others like us? I haven't met anyone in my life before who identifies as a-sexual.
Did you for real see a doctor about a wasting away feeling? Or do you have physical ailments for real? If you're comfortable answering that of course! PM me if you want!

[Fish]

Yes! search up AVEN.com, on Netflix they even have a documentary about A-sexuals :) yeah.. I've seen him many times because I've been very sick for about three years and almost had to leave school because I've missed too much of it... I'll wake up and not be able to move and be like that for a week or so... I can't eat without getting sick--I can't even drink water wwithout getting sick :/ Apparently I have the symptoms of a whole bunch of illnesses so they can't figure it out. :/

[TillingBuckle50]

Oh god.. i really hope you find out what is wrong and i hope they can help you. I feel weak and drained but i can still do everything i need to :-( it's a hard feeling though

[Fish]

Thanks...I'm probably just as I said int he poem, absolutely bonkers :P it might be anxiety, stress, depression (not all types of depression are actually sad :P ) and there should be all kinds of stuff the doctors should be able to do to fix how drained you are. It could also be an Iron deficiency... :o Do you eat a lot of meat?

[TillingBuckle50]

i know i need to check a few things out for sure, apparently thyroid problems can cause this too. grr our frail human bodies

[Fish]

OH. That runs in my family! O.O both my sisters had a thyroid problem... you should really go to the doctor soon before you get really really really sick... D: they felt drained, tired, weak, it messes with your metabolism D: tomorrow is monday. go to a doctor.

[TillingBuckle50]

You're so sweet. maybe I should. I'm happy we met! I will look up aven.com too!

[Fish]

not maybe, definitely. *Takes on stern, parental glare* hah :P I'm happy we met too ^_^ I've never met any other Aces before I joined writers cafe, now I meet lots ^_^ :3

[Fish]

you should definitely find out about the documentary about Asexuality too, it's about the creator of Aven.com :)

[TillingBuckle50]

Hahaha, awesome you care more than anyone i know IRL. why is the world so weird!

[Fish]

mmm we'll never know... :P And it'll only get weirder XD I still don't understand why most girls scream and practically orgasm at the sight of the sight of highheels and just any shoes at all. o,o seriously wtf they are just shoes they go on your feet.

[TillingBuckle50]

lol i dont get why people do that with any kind of clothing!

[Fish]

I know it's weird O.O I only do that if it's something amazing like a Pikachu hoodies and nerd stuff... XD

[TillingBuckle50]

my 15 year old little brother says he only wears expensive brand name clothing and that's all he wants. i think it's pretentious and weird.

[Fish]

yes homo? yes metrosexual? lol. Just be thankful that he's a guy with style who probably doesn't have his arse hanging out of his "gangster" pants

[TillingBuckle50]

lol true. he has decided to make his hair style a weird like high top will smith style from the 80's. lol his friends are all making fun of him on facebook so i said, good job for trying different things little brother.

[Fish]

your broski sounds like a stylish boss to me... :P

[TillingBuckle50]

Hahahah Im sure he would thank you for saying that. This is such a long thread on your poem! We`re funny

[Fish]

long threads rock :3 we should probs message though, :3

[AlchemicPlutonian]

Conduits of creativity rarely have the luxury of sanity.
'Some people never go crazy, what truely horrible lives they must lead' -Charles Bukowski.

[Fish]

A beautiful quote