Self destruct

what the hell did you just do
the voice in my head screams
with just a few words
my world feels dark and cold
I know its my fault
I do it every time
I hit the self destruct button again
and boom there I go
I swore I wouldn't
How could I
Because its built in me
A safety precaution
when i start to feel 
like it's all falling apart
and it's all my fault
The voice in my head speaks up
and says make it stop
make the hurt go away
make the pain stop
I close my eyes as I think
I cant, my heart feels broken in two