Reasons

(T) My first non-patterned, pure feeling poem. It's written how it came out at the time.

I feel the tension rising inside me
I try to fight it but it won't go away
It's like a voice inside me
Begging me to give in
Reasoning with me, telling me just once more
Once more won't hurt
Only I know it will and that's why I want it
I can't explain why, it's just a need
Like it will make things alright
The pain outside takes the pain inside away
I'll be in control and I'll get what I want
As opposed to the cold world I live in
They look so tempting, they call to me
I long for the feeling
They sting as I drag and swipe them
Desperatly, angrily, wanting
It starts with one, then a few, then more
Until the emotion inside me is released
Onto my skin, where I can see it
It flows through my fingers, through the metal
And deal with it on the outside
Inside I am relieved and calm
The pressure is gone and I am free
To sleep and to dream for one more night
And live for one more day

Author's Note

This is a poem written without change, without editing, it's in its purest form.

Reviews

[Poetic Beauty]

This poem reminds me of self mutilation. I have known a few people who have had to deal with this in their lives constantly battling the urges. this poem is descriptive and if that is the topic then you have done it with delicacy. It is eye opening into what it would be like to struggle with this particular issue for lack of a better word.