Nothing Left to Say

What is there possibly left to say? I've used every word known to man to make you see how much your actions have devastated me, how much your silence has crippled my heart.. I have spoken eloquently to keep from losing control with you, I have carried myself with grace through the humiliation & shame you brought on me.. What is left for me to say when you come back to my door? I choke on those bitter tears, as you stand before me with red rimmed eyes & a shakey voice begging me to take you in & heal you again with my gentle touch & unconditional love.. She left you again, & here you are again, at mercys door.. And you present me with the most gut wrenching decision I've ever had to face.. All I want to do is scoop you up, dry your tears & prove to you again, that it's MY love that will never waver, that it will always be me that will give you all I am.. But, at what cost? My heart has been destroyed time & again by your thoughtlessness, my spirit, trampled.. And so, with every bit of strength I can collect from this little body, with every piece of my broken heart screaming at me to do what's right for the both of us, I close the door.. No words were necessary.. I just closed the door, & melted into the carpet on the other side & sobbed until there was nothing left.. I listened to you do the same, knowing it was finally over, that there will never be a next time, another chance.. I may have even heard the moment that you realized that you had hurt me too much, the moment you realized you really needed me, the moment you realized you pushed too far..

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[Sami Khalil]

"My heart has been destroyed time & again by your thoughtlessness, my spirit, trampled.. And so, with every bit of strength I can collect from this little body, with every piece of my broken heart screaming at me to do what's right for the both of us, I close the door.. No words were necessary.. I just closed the door, & melted into the carpet on the other side & sobbed until there was nothing left.."

Wow. What a splendid read and write. Thank you for sharing this powerful one...:)

[Malan]

Thank you, Sami.. I think I've hit that "too broken to even write anymore, but too desperate for healing to stop" point, lol..

[Sami Khalil]

I totally understand...You are welcome...:)