What went through your mind when you were being intimate with me, but you knew that you would be dropping me like I was the anti christ? Did you just say the things you knew I'd want to hear? Did you just close your eyes & imagine I was her? When you comforted me as I cried, & whispered those reassuring words of your love, was that painful for you? Did you feel anything in those moments? Or did you only tolerate it, as a means to an end? How could anybody be so inhumane? Knowing my silent fears, knowing that I had always held out hope for just a taste of normalcy.. What kind of monster exploits the hopes & fears of another human being? I would walk through hell & back for some answers from you.. Just the way you always said that you would do the same for me, if we could be together.. If only you had been as ridiculously transparent as I was.. What a shameful, heart wrenching lesson you taught me..