The life I chose

Love can blind you in the begging, but it hurt you at the end

Eyes open, chest hurts

 

Stubble to the bathroom

Am I still breathing?

It all seems so surreal

 

Then comes the boom

Screaming, shouting

“Do what I ask and we won’t fight?”

“Shut up I have a head ache”

“Sort the kids out they are making a noise”

 

Why do I have to be subservient?

You don’t rule my life

 

I changed for you

But you won’t change for me

Do you love me or am I just an object for you to poses

 

I look at you and all I see is anger, distain and aggression

I don’t want this anymore; I want to be able to feel someone next to me at night

Someone holding me after making love,

Falls asleep with me,

Cry with me when a movie is sad

Laugh with me when the kids have done something cute

 

I want a companion,

A best friend

A partner

A lover

But most of all I want respect

 

I dreamt I found that him, it was like two world colliding and causing pure fusion

I felt ecstasy, love and passion all at the same time

Why can’t it be a reality?

Why can’t I have my moment for ever?

Why can’t I feel alive, want, appreciated?

 

I know he is out there

I have seen him in my dreams

I want him a my life

 

 

Reviews

[Rhine Wolf]

this is a very personal write. i trully hope that your partner comes round and sees the damage that is being done to you and that it is done before it is too late.

there is a spelling mishap or two, i like the free flow you created in this one. all in all a satisfying read, thank you for sharing.

Blessed be.
Fallon