Life is just an illusion. I'm so numb, I am so alone. My heart is broken clean in two. And it does not matter at all. Nothing matters. They say you can make a difference in the world. Maybe you can, but no one will remember forever. Even if its written in a book, no one will care. The man who created the polio vaccine. He saved millions of lives. I don't know who he is. Nor do i care. Is that cold hard ignorance? Or is that the truth. Like a wall of electricity, we are trapped in the boundaries of how much we can know about life. I know this to be true, I have tried to step out of that boundary, only to be shocked and pushed back in. But it does not matter. Lets face it. Love is a wonderful thing. When you truly fall in love and get married...for what? For your own uncrushable desire. Yes it may be beautiful. But it doesn't matter. Its not going to benefit the universe in anyway. It nothing can help make anything truly better. Cause we are all going to die. Some say " Oh life is worth living to the fullest so be happy and fall in love and have kids and do whatever makes you love life". Believe that, because honestly its better than the truth. Cause the truth is. It does not matter. I am tormented every day with the thought that my life is eating itself. I'm not important. Nothing is important. It doesn't matter. This is my last work. Writing any more wont matter.