You Break It, You Buy ItA Poem by Finding my mindThis summarizes my struggle with materializing my thoughts, finding love, and growing up, and how they are all intertwined in my mind.
Strands of my hair
Flick in the wind As I don't run. I sit on the porch. Lost in my skull Thinking deep Wishing deep I wish I was deep. Deep in a hole. Dead in a place where I could finally think. Quiet and safe. But do not cry. I'd solve the problems And climb out of the tomb. Out of the womb. Become reborn. A woman with real thoughts. "Am I immature?" I waited and waited Yes. Every time he says silly, I die and I sink I need to think. Go to the ground. Find me a river To drown my thoughts Wash them out of my ears Like pixie stick dust Float around my skull Swim to the edge Break an ankle Gather my wares And limp to the crossing. Born again with thoughts, thoughts In a handbag my brain I hail a train Chug away from the river Where I drank the silent knowledge Through my lungs It could be in my blood. Chug, chug home To the place where he waits The one to whom I belong The one who says silly Knocks me into a hole, Oh Lord. Who lives in a swimming pool And smiles parenthetically As monkeys or dogs. But he is a child in my life And I suppose that I live The life of a child, "También." As it were, I was a child And he was a child On a playground by the sea. We build a kingdom on the gulf Breathe in the salt Because tomorrow you're in a costume Run from the thoughts You live in hole every day now. He still lives in a swimming pool. Maybe it's better That you don't touch. For, as the signs have prophesied, You break it You buy it. And that's just the goddamn truth. © 2013 Finding my mindAuthor's Note
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Added on March 10, 2013 Last Updated on March 10, 2013 Tags: Poetry, Bildungsroman, prose, childhood, Poe, Poe allusion, spoken word, experimental, thoughts, teenage, teen, struggles, break, buy, you break it you buy it, truth, growing up, angst |