You’re there again, in your dreams, floating thousands of
feet above the surface and staring down at your bedroom. Only it’s not your
bedroom; it’s the room of someone else, a you that dreams of safety and
comfort, a you that isn’t you, anymore. You watch this bedroom that’s yours but
isn’t crumble and crack, folding in on itself before toppling over. You watch
the you that isn’t you cry, crumpled and creased like a piece of paper, shaking
ever so lightly. You watch this figure fade, blown away like ash in the breeze,
a bitter aroma reaching your nose even from here.
The tower rebuilds itself, stone and glass floating back into
place like rain falling in reverse, gentle yet with a conviction that could drown
even the tallest mountains. The words come back to you then, you can taste them
in the back of your throat, it reminds you of bile.
“I expected better
from you. Take it apart and put it back together again, make it better.”
The words leave your lips before you can even process them, and suddenly you’re
down there, watching your bedroom teeter and fall, a tower of
security and home broken to millions of pieces. You falter, tears on your face
as you curl around yourself and shake, a version of you that isn’t you watching
from above.