I dont know...

I don't know anymore :'/ I feel like i am wasting my life every second I am not being productive. do you guys ever feel this way?

I feel ignored,

not only by myself but everyone around me,
I know my life has only gotten better than it was before,
but I feel as though my life is wasting away,
I don't hang out with friends on the weekend,
I don't go to parties,
i am never invited to events,
and my weekends consists of school projects and tv,
I feel as though I could be advancing in my studies,
even right now I could be practicing for track,
I could be out on a date right now,
I could be exercising to fit the status qou,
but whats the point of having a acne free face,
having a flat stomach,
or having a social life when I already have such little confidence in myself,
I try so hard to take care of myself for confidence,
even this morning I was secretly judging myself on my teeth,
I took off my glasses and looked in the mirror to only see a blur of colors,
and darkness around my eyes from my lack of sleep,
because that blur is me,
I don't know what I need to do to be what I want,
I sometimes loose track of who I want to be,
and do I even truly know what I want,
or will my interests change,
these are the things that bother me,

and that is why I do nothing on the weekends,
I'm afraid to mess up everything,
I'm afraid of changing things,
and sometimes knowing that that is my mindset,
scares me more than anything.

Author's Note

Please review :/ and tell me if you ever feel this way.
and hey check out this song if you so desire
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KymxQfJDm0c

Reviews

[Laura Harrison]

i constantly feel that way! it sucks doesn't it :/ great write :)

[Skylar]

Thanks :D Its a very depressing world