Victim

lessons like this are hard to learn

I am:

your victim.
your lover.
your girlfriend.
your best friend.
your follower.
sometimes wanted.
taken for granted.
missing you.
lost.
torn apart.
broken.
alone.
hurt.
destroyed.
guilty.
empty.

I have:
given you everything.
lost it all.
been taken advantage of.
committed.
loved.
cherished.
hoped.
struggled.
fallen down.
opened up.
searched for you.

I don't know:
how to move on.
where to go.
who you are.
why we're together.
how much it takes to end this.
why I'm still so willing.
how much more I can handle.
if your going to lie.
how much I mean to you.
every reason for you to care.
any reason for you to care.
if i could handle you leaving.


I'm devastated, and my heart is bruised. YOU need to fix things, I know you want to..
You raped me.
I won't ever get over that.
Being raped by your own boyfriend is not something I can wrap my head around.
You have my innocence, the only price is you.
I won't say this is your last chance, because I know this isn't the last time I'll forgive you or stop wanting you.

What comes next?

Author's Note

Not up for discussion.

Reviews

[ashley]

Damn. I've been there. I'm so sorry. This is very well written, straight from the heart. Great job.

[deeps]

WOW this is amazing
such an emotional write here.
Well expressed.

[azlamalo]

wow. thats all