Smoke

dedicated to anthony

The smoke clouds the vision, The vision i need to see.

I'm swimming through misty water, unaware of whats ahead of me. I'm waiting there, In the water and i'm looking all around me. Not finding what i'm missing, I need you here with me.

 

I finally found where you've been, Locked up behind prison walls, the light there has be dimmed.Those blue guess of yours , now at a lowered glance looking for that more moment of freedom, Just that one chance. Writing endlessly on paper to pass the time, yet all it seems to keep the demons inside.

...I arrive there at those prison walls, The walls that kept you away from me, I handed them there tool in exchange for that once soul, the one that mine cannot seem to live without. Standing there in the rain, staring at that door in which would free you from that cage. That moment when i saw you standing there, The rain seemed to have stopped mid fall and i felt my heart stop. Then came the call...

RoseMarie.....   with arms wide open, you hugged me so tight, i felt like my soul could take flight.

that long drive home from the misty rain, i felt my heart beat once again. I love you more then words could tell, but now its a day later and not a single call. My depression is creeping in, thoughts of betrayl are weaping in. Was i lied to , just to acheive your freedom, was i meant for only tears.

I'm sitting here with hands shaking cause i feel like all of this was mistaken, broken promises, broken lies..  now i am left alone to cry...

 

so now im swimming through this misty lake, not knowing which path to take. In a single spot i decided not to kick nomore, and float there untill the mist makes me not exsist anymore.