Its always raining inside my head

..and no its not the lyrics from stained.

Its raining here, against this window payne.

Each drop of its own tear, it glides down the glass. We lingered here, but only for a moment. That first time when our eyes met, words in our phones, how we couldnt wait to be flesh to flesh. Each moan, each kiss, ..it all seemed never ending.....

Laying next to you on that bed filled with passion. Watching thy percious eyes sleep. You held me close within the confined of your arms, not wanting to let me go, even for a moment.

 

How i wish i can go back to that date, which was circled on my calender. I look at it now and close my eyes, drifting back in time, to remeber every detail of that moment.

I realize now, it was nothing more then a ill-fated dream. Where lies were exchanged, instead of thruths. I was the rebound from your wounded heart. Pain for pain, ...you wanted yours to be gone. so the devil in you dieased me to have it, That very pain of having this hope shattered.

I sit here, ...keep telling myself over and over, that this is different, not like all the others before.

Time,....

Time,....

It repeats the variations of all that was before. I was fooled to think that you would want to love me. Fooled to think that i could be special to you. I was your w***e, and through my eyes i wanted to be the princess. Why, why did you fill my head with fairytales?..why did you make me beileve? why couldnt you just tell me i was going to the w***e,...

lay down... shhhh... This is love.

The only love i ever known , was when the front door closed shut.

you left me here, with these thoughts, with these demons.

you left me here..

you left me....

you left..

....you....

Author's Note

it was painful to write this , cause i still love him.