maclice in wonderland

its not a poem more like a blog

okay its 9 am in da morning. i just finished telling my best friend, that i love him, The reason why he is my best friend is because he , compaired to my others, have very unique qualities, he understands me and took the time to know me for me. and i guess those are what made my feelings toward him escalate.

Now i told him how i felt, and the words i feared he would say, were spoken aloud. and i just started crying. But more then the heartbreak of being shot down, i feel more embrassed the anything. i dont know how i am going to feel when i see him face to face next. Cause i laid myself out there.

He is such a good person, reguardless of everything, One of the main reasons is because he is intellegent, has a great sence of humor, and is unique in everyway. Now Him & i stopped talking for a while because of liez that were said to him from his ex. and now for the past 3 weeks, me & him have been recnsiled after 2 years of silence. And i havnt stopped smiling since march 27th.

I guess i just have to breathe and stop crying, and look at the big picture thats in perspective now. that i have to accept god's plans and not my own wishes. God chose him to be my friend to walk with side by side through life. Sure im sure when he finds a woman for himself, i will feel sad, but i have to remeber that i hold a special place in his heart aswell. as a friend.  that i have unique qualities about myself that makes him want to be in my life. He could have just pushed me away all together, but he did not, he was very heartfelt about the situation.

I guess i just have to breathe and take one step at a time. i dont want to loose him anymore, cause loosing him was like being locked in a cold, black room all by myself. with no light of ever shinning in.

i love him, and will not ever deny that, and that i will be there with him, as his friend, like frodo and sam.

"I'm glad it is you who is beside me, in the end of all things"

Reviews

[Poeticpiers]

definitely more of a blog. which would benefit greatly from a spell check before posting
I musr say i found your train of thought interesting but you do not do yourself justice rushing to post before spell check and re editing