Sasha

How do you fight the demons inside of your head, Or the ones that course through your body? Im sitting here, thinking of all that i had to go through and experianced. I've been lied to, used as pawn for own perosnal pleasure & gain. I on the reciving end, get used, abused and taunted, lied to, hurt, and plotted against. Now the demons inside of me are saying " Make them pay", "Make them pay for theire sins against you" and the hunger grows and grows.
I want those who have caused me heart ache and pain to feel what i went through. I want them to know what it feels like to , feel like there nothing more then a carcus, so empty inside they can hardly hear their own heartbeat.  But i know i can't, because the heart of me bleeds just thinking of doing that to the. but the SUCCUBUS in me wants them to pay dearly for what they have done. So there lies the agony of it all, My mortal heart fights with my Succubus nature. How do i accomplish the proper punishment? or how do i surpress it and move on?