Whenever I look Back

Direct from my heart, times I have experience personally..

Whenever I look Back

There seems something missing

Whenever I look back 

I admonish myself sometimes 

And rebuke my aching heart 

I feel the need to revive my soul 

Whenever I look back 

These moments being caustic & oppressive

And the time being rebellious & painful

I only feel blighted and lost

Whenever I look back 

I surely pull out all the stops

To kill off this interminable anxiety

But my courage seems to languish at the point

Whenever I look back 

There is some restraining force

Pulling me all way back

Refraining me to find my lost soul

I fall and break into pieces

Whenever I look back 

I am simply afraid and lost

In my messed life

A mystery, whispering wistfully for aid

I feel I lost my life

Whenever I look back 

_Fariha Kabir