Pt 5

Questions

I have all the answers

if only you would

ask the right questions

yes, no, maybe so,

if only you would ask

yet I know, in my own mind

that  things would not last

yet just to be able to say

that i was yours,

if only for a while,

would be far more

than what i ever expected

to ever have.

If only you would ask

the right questions.

 

How Could You

How could i allow myself

to trust you?

I have been hurt

by so many before.

I trusted them

with my heart,

and they destroyed it.

just like you.

I trusted you from

the start,

now it is just a matter

of time until

you follow in their actions.

just a matter of time

until you find someone better

which in my mind

is not hard to do.

I do not understand why

you would have taken interest,

i probably never will.

how dare you betray me.

I trusted you.

And now I stand alone

once again.

 

 

 

Proven

you have made my choice for me.

you have proven to me

that you can not be trusted.

you have proven to me

where your interest lies.

you have proven to me

that logic should

always be followed

over emotions.

you, like so many before

have betrayed me.

proven that i am nothing

to you.

and that i always will

be nothing.

why do i continue to believe

their lies?

continue to be fooled

by meaningless emotions.

why must my instinct

always be

Proven true?

 

Forever

never leave me, always be with me,

allow me to stay here,

next to you.

don't touch me,

stay away from me,

never come near me,

don't speak to me.

leave me be.

never leave me.

when will you notice?

how can i tell you,

then i am only existing

because of you.

i was wounded,

just starting to heal,

and yet again

i have been hurt once more.

forced once again

to close off my heart

never to trust you

again.

 

 

Alone

I did not think it

was possible

to feel so alone

though surrounded

by others.

but they are not truly

the same as I.

they do not belong

to the darkness

they dismiss meas no more

than the child i appear.

yet they despise me

not knowing the true

danger they are in.

They do not realize my spirit

is by far elder than they.

surrounded by humans,

chatting away

yet deafened by the silence.

i will not be this alone again.

I was forced into this

isolation

and i will not allow myself

to trust another

only to be hurt again.

my trust only belongs

to other creatures

of the darkness.

 

Trapped

Out of options,

out of choice,

no way out.

No hope of change.

I have tried,

nothing has worked.

This is my last resort.

Does it even matter to you?

Will it ever?

Will you ever realize

that this prison

you have made,

is merely making it

easier for me,

to leave this place

and never return.

 

Shades Of Grey

My world is now noting

but shades of grey.

It has been so long

since i felt

this at home,

even though I am still alone.

many of my worries have been

put to rest.

My demons have calmed,

no longer watching for

signs of a betrayal.

I have gotten so that

very few things bother me.

other than YOU.

 

The Time Will Come

It is just a matter of time

until the darkness that resides

deep within me

will once again take over

and i shall disappear from

their so called society

and return to the shadows

away from those that say they care.

It has gotten so that

they believe that i am not a danger,

they no longer realize

how easily i could simply

end it all and put an and to all

of the problems that continues to

follow me.

It is true that my heart

does belong to others

but they either

do not realize

or simply do not care.

They do not realize

what goes on in the darkness

and silence of the night.

the time will come when

once again i shall fade

back into the shadows

hidden in darkness.

Finally At PEACE.

 

 

 

Destruction Of Humanity

humans are nothing more than a disease.

killing all which would be

 of benefit or opposition.

despite that they

are the invading organism.

for a beast that claims

to be of superior intelligence,

they seem to be completely

unaware of the damage they have done.

all of the earth has been poisoned

and killed by human greed.

they destroy life giving resources,

destroy all forms of threat,

that could harm their precious lives.

A time will come when the mother earth

shall destroy that which has

cause her so much pain.

their false sense of safety

shall be brought to a

swift end.

 

 

Once Again

I am once again back

where i was at the start

no freedom, no reason to continue,

no purpose,

i remain here alone.

Things have not changed.

things that once mattered,

are now worthless to me.

this existence i live

is but an insult to

my own beliefs and values.

I could end it all so easily,

but that's the coward's way out.

they allow me to get close,

then push me away.

pushing me once step closer

to the end.

He has my heart

and it means nothing.

my existence in their lives,

does not matter.

I could fade into the shadows,

but i can no longer

stand the pain.

 

Faded

The darkness has taken over,

The light has faded from view.

my heart has become so cold and black.

they have seen to my destruction.

they have crushed what remained of my spirit.

but they do not realize

it was they who allowed

the darkness to come forth.

their world will soon become

a haven for the creatures

of the night.

my hatred shall once again

become the driving force

of my existence.

those that oppose me

will be a great satisfaction,

for it will be at my hands

that their lives will ended.

I shall once again enjoy

the sweet taste of blood

for it has been far too long,

since my blood-lust

has been quenched,

and they are the perfect

victims to satisfy it.

my vengeance shall be

a welcomed change.

 

Finally

You have finally done it

you have finished

breaking my heart.

you no longer care.

and it will never again

matter to you just

how much i care,

or how much i would do.

you have all betrayed

on the rumor that i did.

it is just a matter of time

until all of this pain

will be released

in a sea of red.

i will fade away into

the darkness that

is my life.

 

The Time Has Now Come

The time has come

for you to say good bye.

for you are all about

to feel your heart die.

the pain that is

buried deep within me

has begun to escape

to the surface.

I have been pushed

yet another step closer

to the edge of my control.

their lies and false faith,

it is all nothing but a dream,

and soon the

nightmare will begin.

Their deepest fears

Alive on the tip

of my blades.

 

Endless

This world holds nothing for me,

those that i love have turned.

all i have is false truths,

loneliness, lies and betrayals.

I am alone,

and always will be.

I give my heart far to easily

knowing the pain that would follow.

perhaps one day

i will learn to guard myself again,

but so far i have failed.

I would love to just give in,

love to live this lie,

that everything is all right,

while i secretly wish to die.

I know it is an empty death,

serving no purpose

other than ending my constant pain.

Maybe one day they will see

it was they who killed me.

maybe one day they will

realize the silence

of the night is a danger.

my pain has gotten too great,

the time has come

to put an end to it.

Author's Note

for some reason i couldn't get rid of the font formatting, so ignore the fact it doesn't match the other ones.