Confessions

Savor this moment..

That’s all i heard…

That’s all I ever heard..

And even now none of the fragments

of my bittersweet memories

makes any sense…

And the rhythm of my heart seems to be fading..

A rose blossoms before my eyes..

Softly she rises to the skies..

The impressionism she gives is everlasting..

Only in death can we find our true selves..

That’s all that’s clear to me..

Though nothing can be done to prevent my time on this earth…

I’d be more than happy to die for her…

For my sun..

For my vision..

For my rose..

The horror that is endless..

The love that is Namelezz..

These distorted segments of sentences..

They throw me into an abyss of grief..

A prison of solitude..

Bound to forever walk alone..

That is what I fear the most..

The unforgiving cold of being..

Alone..

In time the rose shall blossom…

In time my seed shall grow..

And in time I’ll be gone from this world..

I chuckle slightly..

Because who really wants me here…

 

Blue?

Namelezz?..

Noize?…

Perhaps even Rabbit..

 

The people I love…

The people who reject me..

The people who loves me..

The people I hurt..

 

Every time I write a sappy poem..

Every time I shed a tear..

 

A part of them dies..

That’s what it feels like for me anyway..

Indeed my love is a sad romance..

A thrilling yet depraving tale of two young lovers..

Lost in each-other..

Lost in his lies..

Lost in her eyes..

Fucked up beyond any conceivable repair..

Though I’ve never been strong enough to mend my own scars..

I’ve been idiotic enough to mend everyone else’s…

 

I can’t see the end yet..

Feels like I gave up long ago..

Yet I’m not anywhere near the point of no return..

But ladies and gentlemen..

This is the overture for the destruction of countless lives..

On my behalf..

I’ve seen what I’ve done wrong..

Self-inflicted f**k ups..

 

These internal eternal struggles…

The carry me towards a light black sky..

They rip me piece from piece…

They tear me down..

 

This makes for a beautiful confession..

A confession of murder..

A confession of infidelity…

A confession of unyielding love..

 

I’ve done so much to hurt so many..

And I never thought that I myself could be hurt in the process..

It’s taken my countless nights to progress with this “depression”..

The depression that is now gone..

It’s left me hollow and empty..

And somehow..

I just want to fall back..

Retreat..

And just sit in my room..

Day in day out..

And cry..

For the people I lost..

For the people I left..

And for the people I love..

 

In truth..

How could they love an emotionless monster like me..

I have nothing left..

 

All there is to say now is goodnight..

And may you all sleep peacefully and never mourn..

Yours truly..

 

Fallen

Author's Note

Honest opinion...

Reviews

[Thomas Hudson]

"Hell is other people." Satre.

Powerful poem.

[Chesney W.]

I love it!!!! it's most definatelly the best poem i've ever read in my lifetime......

[stars are far]

Nice poem..

[Tainted Devotion]

An incredibly powerful and meaningful piece of writing. So much emotion that it left me feeling drowned in it all. A very profound and heartfelt piece. Loved it all.

[A Risen Heroine.]

"The ugly" is gone?
I'm happy if so! No need to fight it anymore.
Now for the poem.
I really like it, never thought you could write like THAT, so much emotion, a never endning need of Your Rose.
I could feel it right there.
And Fallen, you may think you lost me long ago, you did, yet I am here for you (you do not have to believe me, yet I am) I am still your friend.

And I am sorry to say; you did hurt so many, in so many ways.

Don't ever lie to her again, please?
Your Rose mean so much to you, why watch her wither?

Overall: Great poem, and a lot of emotions. I like it.

~A Fallen Heroine~

[Coyote Poetry]

This is real and powerful poetry. Great thoughts, regrets and memories in your words. No weakness in this outstanding poem.
Coyote

[Brook Hughes]

This is such a beautiful poem!:) wow... i dont know what to say.. lol.. this is probably one of my most favorite poems that I have ever read...ever. simply amazing! some of us are born with the gift of writing... and you are definitely one of them:) Most favorite lines in this beautiful piece of work:
A rose blossoms before my eyes..
Softly she rises to the skies..

Though I’ve never been strong enough to mend my own scars..
I’ve been idiotic enough to mend everyone else’s…

Simply amazing:) You are an amazing writer.