Disregard

As I lay here..

Could you just try to assure me that everything will be alright..

That nothing could take you away from me..

It's like I look throughout an empty world..

Just leave me where I stand..

Please..

Let me fall..

Let me break down..

I need a touch of inspiration..

Maybe that could make me feel alive..

Just for a second..

That's all I really want..

But I'll let you haunt..

Just for my mind to become older and older..

As if I needed that..

So leave me here..

So shut the door and leave me in complete agony..

I don't need a way out..

I need silence..

More like I'd like silence..

Just for a day..

Maybe two..

But silence is nearly demanded..

And then I'll pursue a new life..

And then I'll just die out slowly..

Letting my blood rush to my head as it drips from my wrists..

I just want to die..

I served you good I guess..

I let you f**k me when you wanted too..

And I was just your silent protector..

I took every shot that you gave..

I gave in..

So why do you still contact me?

You instigate me..

You dictate me..

You disgust me..

But the crazy romance we had was oblivious..

We forgot the world and our walls went down..

As I softly kissed your neck and removed your clothes..

I'm revolted..

Your slightly tanned skin..

Your dark auburn hair..

The way you said you loved my chapped lips..

The way we got drunk on the weekends..

Yeah..

It's over..

It's for the best anyway..

Because where did you leave me?

In the old arms of depression...

Yet a f*****g gain..

But this sick infatuation is more like a punctuation..

But why should I care?

Because I'm sick?

No..

Because I'm forced to kiss a bride with a taste for death and disregard?

So take me down from this monument..

Shoot me between my eyes..

Let my blackish blood hit you as it sprays..

And kiss me one last time

A Fallen Hero signing out..

Yeah..

That's me..

But I will hail King Scum..

Because I know..

I'll someday bow to someone..

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

The words were strong and honest. I like the way you write. No sweet words or forgiveness. Just strong statements and fact. Thank you for a excellent poem.
Coyote

[Brook Hughes]

This poem showed a lot of different aspects in life and was well written. Great job

[Carrion.]

this was very emotional..I can relate on some levels, and it sounds at the end,that the person is gonna give up someday.
I love this poem.

[Tasha]

This was great indeed.
♥ Ta'Shandra

[nevermindfan1991]

What an excellent written poem. This poem touches so many facets of despair. Such as isolation, self-deprecation, and regret. This poem was very interesting to read, it covered such deep, dark, but contemplative topics. But you wrote it in a way that it seemed like a rant. When people write to vent it usually doesn't come out well, but yours was amazing. I really enjoyed reading this. Great Job!

[Becky C Strukamp]

So much reminds me of parts of my life, scarry. Loved it all the same. Excellent write.

[Dayran]

On the autobahn one day, I saw a car do 250 mph. It shook the tour bus I was in.

[stars are far]

This was so great ...yet it was sad i loved that a lot and i enjoyed reading it ..
great poem indeed ..