Falling Whilst Standing Strong

I stand in this post traumatic horror of a mind.. My own.. I hope to hell that I can release this pain.. I was just standing in a hell.. A hell not hot as told by parents.. But cold.. So cold.. Yet I didn’t freeze there.. I didn’t feel anything.. Nothing at all.. My sympathy.. Died.. My empathy.. No where to be found.. Nothing was left.. Not even a feeling.. I won’t become that empty again.. Not ever.. And I fall asleep..

Setting starts..

I’m on stage.. An acoustic guitar in my hand.. The crowd is huge.. I say “This song is called Empty Dreams” And the whole crowd screams.. I start playing.. There’s only me on stage.. Down in the crowd someone falls.. Everyone falls down.. But one person.. She stands strong.. And she starts walking towards the stage..  The Dream Killer.. She takes the guitar from me.. My beautiful Fender.. She smashes it to the floor.. “Missed me?” She says with a cold voice.. “My guitar you b***h!” I scream at her.. “Kill me then” she says.. I let my body slam into hers and I swing my fists at her relentlessly.. She keeps taking it.. She kicks me off.. She’s bleeding heavily.. “Look what I’ve got” She says as she makes My Heroine appear.. She takes a knife and slits her throat.. She feasts on My Heroine’s blood.. I go crazy.. I fly at The Dream Killer and I grab the knife and stab her.. I pierce her chest so violently that death is inevitable.. But she doesn’t die.. “I’m a manifestation of your own imagination here.. You can’t kill me.. Not until you go back to everything you were before..” she says.. “Never!” I take a swing at her.. 

Setting change.. 

I fall to the ground.. My fist never managed to hit her did it? I don’t know.. But she told me that when I was ready to go back.. She would disappear.. I won’t go back.. Never in a million years will I go back to being that wretched and cursed fool that I was before.. I’m so much stronger now.. Where am I? I look around.. I see stone walls with torches on them.. It’s a long cave.. Not an exit in sight.. So I venture into the cave.. As I walk.. I see everything I’ve ever wanted.. But it would be a lie if I said I didn’t care.. I was overwhelmed with a feeling of being disgusted.. I cared for all these things.. But not as much as I hated them.. As I reached the end of the cavern.. I saw a pretty flower at my feet.. I sat down and talked to it.. “Why is she haunting me” I said.. “She haunts you because you won’t let a part of her go” it said.. “What do you mean?” “Well, you want to become stronger.. Even though she made you oh so strong.. You seek the memory to keep being that strong.. You shouldn’t need that” It said.. “That’s what I’ve been told.. But it’s so hard.. And I hate it..” I answered.. The flower caught on fire.. Blue flames.. It was beautiful..  As I touched it.. It disappeared..

Setting changes..

I’m standing in the side of a road.. Cars passing me by.. A car stops.. I get in.. “I can face you now..” I said with a shivering voice.. “You’ll never be able to face me” A voice said.. “I know what you are” I said.. Still not looking to the source of the voice.. I knew who it came from.. “You’ll never know me.. Not fully.. I’m so complex” It said.. And the car stopped.. “Right here.. This is the perfect place for our showdown..” I said.. The car had stopped in a clearing.. We had driven through terrible nightmares.. And I turn to the source of the voice.. “Well Hello.. And how I’ve missed you” I said.. The Dream Killer glanced back at me.. “So know you want to fight me, huh?” She said.. “Yeah.. You’ve destroyed to much for me..” I answer.. I look to the ground and pick up the sword lying at my feet.. A sword of fine steel.. And a fire burning in the middle of the blade.. She pulls out her black sword.. We fly against each other.. I strike first but she blocks me, kicks me in my side and swing her sword at me.. I block.. And I swing the sword..

Setting change..

I’m on my knees.. I fall.. “I Failed!” I scream.. The sound resonates.. I’m in a church.. But not a Christian church.. I’m in a church where the picture of Jesus is burning.. Every single cross is upside down.. I’m in a Satanic church.. I don’t understand how I got here.. A blade pierces my chest from behind.. The last words I say is “I’ll come back.. You know I will.. I can face you.. You know I can.. I will kill you.. You know I will.. Farewell Dream Killer..”

Setting Changes..

I sit up in my bed and grab my cigs.. I light one.. As I sit in my room.. Wanting nothing but My Heroine.. She’s asleep though.. So I can’t call.. Damn.. My nightmares are growing worse again.. I can’t keep doing this every single night.. I get up and take a walk.. As I’m out walking.. Some random f**k comes up to me.. And he says something.. I walk away from him.. Until I really hear what he said.. “It’s Coming For You” I turned around.. He wasn’t there.. My mind just created some random guy.. Just to make me scared.. I get up on top of the bridge and I just sit there..  I look at my phone.. 4:30 am.. F**k.. I grab my cigs.. I light one.. And I sit there.. I just sit there.. And I think.. I think of everything.. But what I really can’t get out of my head.. Is My Fallen Heroine.. I miss her so much.. And I jump from the bridge.. As I fall.. I realize that I’m dreaming.. 

Setting dies..

Author's Note

Honest opinion..

Reviews

[patricia]

I thought this was excellent, could have kept on reading more of it.

[Coyote Poetry]

A powerful chapter. So many statements stood out. Dreams are the highways of anger and disappointment. I had to learn to meditate to be able to sleep. Life can twist us our daily routine and dreams. A strong ending to a excellent chapter.
Coyote

[A Risen Heroine.]

Babe, this nightmare is really bugging me...
The Dream Killer will never seperate us, I won't let her.
I know you'll win, you're strong you can do it, I want to stay by yourside if you want me to :)

I love you :)

~A Fallen Heroine~

[Life Is Blue]

@Chelsea

I do not think that he makes this up.. I really don't

Great story, it should be published when done. 100/100 strong chapter

Blue

[Chelsea]

Wow, a very intense story! I think you're story writing may be even stronger than your poetry!
I guess because you can really pour your heart out in these long paragraphs!
I must ask you, where do you get all of these ideas? I'm stuck with the same lame ideas and yet you come up with these wild ideas! I just love them----
A strong chapter for sure. Filled with vivid imagery and lots of emotion! I look forward to seeing where the next chapter takes you! You've given yourself lots of options!
I can almost see this as a movie, like an R rated movie haha!
Keep on writing the awesome stuff!