Remember Her

Why is this my life..

I F*****g hate it..

Yes I finally said it..

I hate all this confusion damn…

Why is it that it’s me having to live through this nightmare when I hate it so much!

Every f*****g night it comes back to haunt me…

Comes at daytime now as well like day mares..

Damn I’d be a drug for a psychologist..

F*****g dreams.. 

They make me dread the night..

Oh yea almost forgot about daytime..

Why won’t she realize that I’m the best of him and I?

It’s so easy to see who she should choose…

Me!

But instead she just fires that line of hate..

“I didn’t think that you could be driven by hate, not towards me anyway. I f*****g hate this situation, but you made it so f**k off”

Damn how I hated her back then..

But at least there was another feeling involved than love..

Do you know how it feels to love someone so much, that you can’t even speak or look at them..

If you do, could you explain to me why it, when it’s love, feels like hate?

That’s what I feel like all the time..

Like there’s this line between Her and I..

Is it because I’ve tasted her?

I know all about her taste, her scars and everything else she showed me…

That’s one of the reasons I’ll always remember her..

“I’ll call when I get home” 

That was about the time we agreed not to be together..

A Fallen Hero’s luck I guess…

But when I look back at her in ten years she’ll be a disgusting experience..

And I’ll think to myself what a wonderful world..

A world where a shitton of teens constantly battles depressions and constantly dies of suicide..

All because of a s****y life that no one ever cares about.. 

I just had that on my mind at 4 am in the morning..

I feel so free now..

My writing just flies out of me again..

It’s probably because of all these lies I’ve been fed lately..

And as I take the last drag of my cig I remember her..

A Fallen Hero - Remember Her

Written : 08/02/2011

Dedication : Way to f*****g personal…

Author's Note

Honest Oppinion..

Fallen

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Good to write words down. I have so many books store away. I read them to keep me solid. Easy to forgive the pain and hurt. Remembering the bad times allow us to appreciate the good. Strong words and statement made the poem have purpose and strength. I like how you ended the poem. A excellent poem. Thank you.
Coyote

[OT]

very personal and evocative poetry - or prose perhaps more like!! some great little lines in this one - love the "day mares" haha! very clever!! you're becoming more descriptive all the time - the thoughts and notions are powerful in this one - a strong piece!!! embrace the freedom without her I say! I also like the fighting attitude at the end! the big f**k you to the s**t life - I'll beat you in the end - that's the right idea my friend!!!

[Chelsea]

This is much more than a poem. A raw piece of emotions, anger, hurt, depression... All sorts of things.
You sound really upset and I'm guessing you're really going through a tough time. But hold on, it does get better.
You should look into help (I sound like a Mom) but seriously somebody to talk to always helps.
Hope you feel better!