Despicable

To My Father

 I leave unto a world 

A world I know

A world I fear

What if it’s like last time.

What if?

Just what if?

I’m so f*****g afraid.

Even though I despise my fears

My anxiety takes over.

I hate it.

Disdained intentions lead me to this.

The scent of Her.

That makes me wanna scream.

I’m far to young to be afraid of love.

It’s however my strength

I know what can happen.

I know that It’ll hurt me

I know that I’d die.

Cruel and fake confrontation

Won’t you leave me?

Please leave me alone.

You instigate me.

I gave in.

Why are you still with me.

I want to kill everyone

I despise this world

I hate what I feel and what I see

I love but one thing.

Her..

She is everything I don’t hate

But here I am,

I’m going to do it soon.

The clock is f*****g ticking.

As he said to the misses 

“our son is a f*****g psycho” 

I know I am “father” 

I know

I know that shouldn’t be.

Cuz you raised me so perfectly didn’t you

Leaving my mom and all

You f*****g b***h

Are you the reason why I despise everything

Are you the reason of my damn solitude

As I met you I said 

“Well dad I’ve fallen a long way”

“I’m sorry son”

“Well first of all you hypocrite b*****d, I’m not your son, second of all, I Am A Fallen Hero”

That’s how we ended up in this awkward stance..

I hate them all

And the news papers would just say

“Boy kills father in blind rage, is he The Fallen Hero? Truth be told. Is he too old?”

A Fallen Hero - Despicable 

Written : 13/01/2011

Dedication : To My Loathsome Father Who Made Me Who I Am

Author's Note

A poem to my love and my father

Honest Opinion

Reviews

[Drako]

this is interesting, something you haven't done before. bitterness towards the father that left as a possible root for problems. that's something that comes from outof the blue, and could be true, could be wrong. but i like the way you brought another concept of your life in

[Coyote Poetry]

In this poem. You told a powerful story. You always open many doors with your poetry. Anger, disappointment and craziness was the feel in this poem.
“Well first of all you hypocrite b*****d, I’m not your son, second of all, I Am A Fallen Hero”
Easy to hate and be disappointed. Hard to get up and not allow the world to make you feel weak and pissed off. A excellent poem.
Coyote

[Color of the Iris]

This poem created a combination of pain, love, rage, fear, and confusion, and I felt them all... it was nothing but pure, raw emotion that radiated off of this piece and I loved suffering with you as I read it... it was a great piece... 100/100

[Undying Glory]

this was extremely potent work, that hatred in your words emanates from this screen. powerful work you have here. great job man!

[Nothing Personal]

Well the honesty is blunt ans scathing and hence it does a great job portraying the frustration and anger inside the depicted. Anyways, but it's a great monologue style writing.Quite enjoyable to read..Keep it up !

[E.H. Monroe]

The blending of the two and still pushing that anger in is different from the rest. Thestarting off with the fear and then segueing that into the reason why you are afriad of being left, or being hurt, or just holding the inability to trust so close to your heart shows that growth we were talking about when reaching that inner feeling just not the top layer.

"She is everything I don’t hate
But here I am,
I’m going to do it soon."

The idea that you are giving it another shot and already have the fear that its going to fail almost puts the failure in motion. And when all we, yes you and I, know is uncaring parental figuires it amkes it hard to set anything in motion.

You can look forward to better writing because of it.

The ideas COULD be blended better. I understand the urge to just write and flow it, and going from one to the other is a powerful tool, But make sure the blend is more like a blue and green not a red and black.

Again, you have the growth that we are talking about. Switch up the style and keep trying out new things with rhyme and form