i wish i could make up for what I've done.. But seeing how everything is crashing around me.. I just wanna be totally honest to you.. I've developed social anxiety.. There is just no way i can apologize to you seeing how.. It's all kind of my fault.. I never wanted to become, this creature writhing in pain. Love is my crime. But yet i don't want you to have this disease. But know that i never exactly hated you. My mind has been thinking like hell about how to get you back.. But I've come to this point, this point where there's no going back.. There's no moving on either.. I have to face this inner demon to be free, To be free of this curse. I've never been so depressed.. A depression is not what I imagined.. I still see pictures, fragments of your face just screaming "kiss me" you fucked me up in a good way. i thought i couldn't exactly show you.. I would just seem to rash. Or harsh... This is just a poem I wrote, it doesn't mean anything to you i know.