Lies And Apologies

Just a little post-depression thing

I still have fear

I’m not over it

There’s no dreams

They are just nightmares

But no darkness

Not yet

But it is 

A Lie And An Apology

My world was crashing

I was so f*****g sick

I was suicidal

It isn’t exactly a fun fact

Nor is it a great memory

I am not mad or sad

I am just sick of

The lies And Apologies 

I used to hate everything

It stained my mind with little pieces

Pieces of what felt like my demise

I was going down

I so hope that I can pull through

I hate the fate of myself

I am just want to be rid of

The Lies And Apologies

I am up again

Another worthless day

In a worthless world

But breeze of freedom

Freedom from this curse

It beats me

I am not yet free of

The Lies And Apologies

I have pulled through

Without pulling the trigger

I am glad to tell you

Dear reader

I am still alive

My depression still haunts me though

Yet I still am afraid of

The Lies And Apologies

No fear left 

I’m over it

There’s only the dreams

Well they aren’t nightmares

Not anymore

They’ve turned to darkness

And nothing more

Than A Lie And An apology

Author's Note

Honest Oppinion

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Killing yourself will allow the b******s to win. Better to dance on the graves of the idiots running this world into the ground. I always like the strength and power of your poetry. Sometime we must learn and become stronger. The liars will pay one day for starving a generation of children from their deserve opportunities. A outstanding poem. Better to observe and one day be ready to do great things.
Coyote

[OT]

I agree with the others - fight it - don't let others win! show you can not only fight back but win the damn fight!! again - strong evocative poem!! nice!

[E.H. Monroe]

I second Coyote. That's a dude in the know with more poetic talent then most any ten people.
You have the tell tale signs of someone who has been beaten. This is the way to swing back. A right hook of creativity.

[Drako]

it's nice to read you beginning to take the power back from those that hurt you. stand tall, and value your life. ignore the lies and the apologies, they're useless to you. just live your life for you and all things will come together

[Kelsie Eileen Stark]

This is an honest piece, but theres no point in attempting killing yourself- when if your so far down that the only way is up.