Distorted Memories

Just something new i wrote on one Depressed days

Shame

I am so overwhelmed by all the guilt

The guilt and shame that I couldn’t 

Couldn’t rid myself of

It carves my bones and scares my completely 

I wasn’t really in for all this hate and panic

Anxiety

I guess my anxiety is still real

Everything I feared has come true

I couldn’t stop it and it is taking it’s toll on me now

I still these f*****g nightmares they make me scream

In fear, in fear of death tearing us all apart again. 

Hate

I am so hateful and fearsome about this

These broken promises on top of broken trust

Hate is what drives us to a point of extinction 

Dread and panic is what I want to remove

Solace and my dreaded love is what makes me hate someone

Sorrow 

I want It to be cleansed, but it want go away

My fear is what brings me into these states of grief and agony

Hatred turns to sorrow and once again I am brought to this statement

It’s not hatred just f*****g sorrow, but I’m still here

This is some form of chaotic insanity

My  mind just mismanages me, but I still hate this

But I am still here and I just wanna be next to…

Next to the way to take away this pain…

Author's Note

Honest Oppinion

Reviews

[mir]

Honest Opinion: I think you're a good writer, you express yourself very well, and I believe you have the potential to succeed in whatever you choose to do---you seem to be very intelligent and you should give yourself more credit.
Honest Opinion: Unfortunately, a lot of people go through life dealing with many of the topics you wrote about. It's not a matter of trying to "remove dread, panic, fear, agony, pain, and hate" from your mind, it's a matter of learning how to control them and replace them with POSITIVE things that make you feel more valuable. If you search for better things in life, you WILL find them, and you're already off to a good start by reaching out and expressing yourself to many people online who take interest in helping and replying back to you with positive feedback. You WILL get through these tough times---no doubt about it---just believe it and have confidence in yourself. Thanks for the read request. Good job!---Honest Opinion!

[Drako]

this was really good. its still dark, but these are emotions we all feel at some point. this leaves me with questions, which is a good thing. Obviously you want the path to healing and peace of mind, and it's a rocky road. at least you can acknowledge any mistakes you've made. that's a step down the right path. times may be hard, but somewhere along the ride they will get better

[Morgan]

This is also a very good poem. I do this quite often. I feel all those emotions. Wish we could manage our emotions? I do.

[PrincessZeldaWannabe]

Love it! It's so clear on everything. Keep it up!

[Cherrie Palmer]

The heights of joy cannot compare to the depths of sorrow wonderful job.

[Pssss I don't Exist.]

Just great, i enjoyed reading it once i got around to it lol

[Kelsie Eileen Stark]

Great poem, tells true emotions that alot of people feel today. The only thing we have left out of that battlle is hope and to be strong. Great job.

[Sarah>_>]

I like the "Hate" part alot :D
You're a very good writer, and I admire the fact that you aren't afraid to use swears in your poetry. Alot of people think that there are a million other words you can use to describe something just as well, and using swears just makes you sound like a bitter angry person.
Well, alot of poetry is ABOUT being a bitter angry person, so I think the swearing here works to your advantage.
btw, I know you're shooting for the "emo" look, but seriously, tone it down some.

[Desert Dreamer]

You have found the beauty in the pain...it is my belief that in order to move beyond the pains of life we must first dive in completely and feel the sorrow, hate, anxiety and shame. We become stronger by knowing these things fully and then by contrast the happy and beautiful things in life's future shine more brightly. Very well written poem.

[Coyote Poetry]

To be healed ain't so easy. We are overtaken by anger, disappointment and sorrow. I like the feel and the emotion of the poem. I learn with age. The mistakes and pain will make us stronger if we learn not to repeat them. You made many strong points in this poem. A outstanding poem. Thank you. No weakness in the poem.
Coyote