Worthless

Results are never what you hope for them to be.

I've finally come to understand,

Where it is that I stand,

One amongst the masses,

Worth less than a carcass,

Yeah I know I'm worthless,

Guess I'll forever be worthless,

I never hold expectations in fear of disappointment,

Yet always partake in unscheduled appointments,

My existence is worth nothing,

Even a withered leaf is worth something,

Yeah I know I'm worthless,

Guess I'll forever be worthless,

Trying my best to reach the surface,

Even mediocrity is beyond my reach,

Clamping like a carapace,

Guarding my lack of worth from being breached,

Yeah I know I'm worthless,

Guess I'll forever be worthless,

A flashing light, 

A broken bone,

A stupid fight,

A random stone,

You know what they all have in common?

More worth than this stupid buffoon,

Yeah I know I'm worthless,

I'll forever be worthless,

Birdy's the name,

Massive disappointment is ma game,

Empty words and stupid confidence,

If only life could hit my conscience,

Cuz im worthless,

I'll forever be worthless,

Plans and quotes and schedules and notes,

In the end i'm always a broken remote,

Not only being useless but hurting others,

I'm sure my parents prefer my brother,

Cuz you see I'm worthless,

I'll forever be worthless,

Worthless,

What a mess,

Worthless,

Dumb f*****g a*s,

Worthless,

I try my best,

Worthless,

It's not even close to the rest.

Author's Note

I'm an complete beginner and hence I'd prefer harsh criticism

Reviews

[Chris Shaw]

When I read a poem, I tend to comment on how it makes me feel. I have to say, your lines felt sad to me that such a young person can have such low self esteem. Having said that, the use of repetition throughout went to add emphasis to that. Somehow if you keep repeating something over and over, it sticks. You say you try your best and I wish you could have expanded on that because I am sure there are far more positives than you give yourself credit for. Keep writing.

Chris