Havent I kept my promise?

How cruel can you be to me?

 

When everything I am, I am because of you...

 

Havent I kept my promise?

 

From the moment I told you I love you forever and a day, till the day I had to go just for awhile...

 

Was I gone long?

 

To sit behind you, only to hear you say "I love you forever and a day" to someone else...

 

Maybe it is my fault, but I'd like to share, that I tried my all to make you smile,

Are you smiling now?

Even when I know that it isnt me that is making you smile...

 

They say give it your best and it'll be alright...didnt they?

I dont understand...

I gave all of myself to make you happy...

 

Isnt it cruel?

 

When reality is too harsh and too brutal,

And it takes away my dreams as well,

Because when I dream, I wake up in tears...

 

Do you know this feeling?

Was every single memory a lie?

Was everthing a lie...

 

Its painful...It simply is...I cant move...

Havent I kept my promise...

Havent I...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[SpiderPumpkin]

Such a heartbreaking poem.. especially when the persona is in despair. It gives me the impression of the persona becoming more and more doubtful and self-absorbed, so lost in his/her own world. But somehow I have the impression the persona is female, since it seems like a delicate and passive stance on the current situation. Feels like time to lie down and just die? A sense of helplessness and pain that is so overwhelming. Not only that it seems like an internal dialog, creating a sense of loneliness. It also gives an impression of the entire world versus the persona, everyone else is so alien, just 'they', 'the world' and 'someone else'. Like as though the persona's existence doesn't even matter at all, promises and sacrifices ignored, even hearing the truth in the harsh way.