Dance With the Devil

I feel it crawling all around my skin;
I feel the war within my mind and It's about to win.
I do not want to scare the ones I love,
But God, please send your angels from up above.
I feel the bitterness and hardening of my soul
As It stiffens up my heart and takes It's unholy toll.
To the people I love, remember who I once was,
For it won't let me give a f**k due to my severe lack of trust.
I've tried to stick it out and stay mentally strong, well now no one can penetrate my heart; it'll destroy any that don't belong!
Believe me when I say I'm sorry for my words..
BUT F*****G GROW A PAIR ALREADY; THEY DON'T PHYSICALLY HURT.
YOU WANNA SEE HURT? YOU WANNA SEE PAIN?
TAKE A LOOK IN THE MIRROR. DONE? LOOK AGAIN!
WE ALL HAVE PROBLEMS; WE ALL HAVE FEARS.
WE ALL HAVE TISSUES FOR OUR ISSUES SO WIPE YOUR F*****G TEARS!
I WON'T BE THERE TO CATCH THEM ANYMORE; YOU NEED TO TOUGH IT OUT.
THERE WON'T ALWAYS BE SOMEONE THERE WHEN YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO CRY ABOUT!
I'll always be here for you..NO I WON'T! STOP LYING!
I still care for you..NO! THAT PART OF YOU IS DYING!
Am I going crazy? Who's inside my brain?!
I'm not insane, I'm not insANE, I'M NOT INSANE!
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Will I be normal? WHAT IS "NORMAL"? Such frustration.
TO BE OR NOT TO BE; that is the unasked question.
Who am I to judge myself? I am not worthy.
It is not my duty to make such accusations against myself and be so wordy.
Who am I? What's my name?
WHAT'S YOUR DEAL, BRO? What's your game?
Are there any rules or is it no holds barred?
Will it be easy or will it be hard?
I need to care for my loved ones..THEY CAN DO IT ON THEIR OWN!
They need my support..SHUT UP, LET'S GO HOME.
How long will you continue to terrorize my sanity?
AS LONG AS I HAVE YOUR NAME, YOU'RE MINE, YOU SEE?
YOU GAVE YOURSELF TO BE LONG AGO..I was stupid and young;
I had no idea the power and poison I had within my tongue..
THAT ISN'T MY PROBLEM; YOU WANTED TO BE STRONGER.
YOU WANTED TO STOP BEING STEPPED ON AND RAN THROUGH ANY LONGER.
I can still care while I have a strong heart..
YOU'LL ONLY END UP RIGHT BACK WHERE YOU STARTED.
Will you understand how I truly feel, friends?
Is this the beginning or beginning of the end?
THINK OF IT AS BULLSHIT; I COULD CARE LESS.
IT'S NO SKIN OFF MY BACK; NO WORRIES, NO STRESS.
THINK OF ME WHAT YOU WILL, BUT UNDERSTAND THIS:
THE LESS PEOPLE YOU'RE AROUND, THE LESS BULLSHIT THERE IS.
I truly am sorry all my family and friends;
I wish not to be this way and it won't happen again..
KEEP TELLING YOURSELF THAT; I feel it coming soon.
WHO KNOWS WHERE I'LL TAKE YOU NEXT COME THE BEGINNING OF JUNE..

Help m...YOURSELF.