Young and Lonely

You went away so young in life, I feel so guilty, blame myself, I cant believe I lost you. It crushed me to find out your gone forever. Sick to my stomach, angry at god, careless to listen to, lonely and hopeless, confused and worried, when my time is done, tears of sadness run down my face, feeling hurt and suicidal, always depressed, maybe someday i wont be as bad.