Enough // Pain

This piece was about moving on from something that had only brought you misery but feeling guilty and confused because you moved on quicker than you believe you should have.

I knew I wasn’t healing

That I needed more time to learn to be me

But when he stumbled in to my life

My heart would forcefully lead

Lead me down a path with consequences

For loving and leaving

And nearly forgetting 

The one I’d left behind

So abruptly.

I left you too abruptly

And walked right into his arms

So quickly I justified my actions

And though it may have been the truth

I’d been misused and abused by you

It makes me no less a traitor.

And by now I should have learned when enough was enough

But I never could let things go

I think that we both know

I’m too busy wearing my heart on my cheek,

Holding every mistake in the palm of my hand

Just waiting.

Waiting for the moment where it all seems to fit.

Every piece of my life that some point led to tragedy

I’m waiting for the pieces to be complete

But this jigsaw puzzle doesn’t fit together.

There seems to be too many missing pieces I’d given away

To those who’d just leave. 

But this time it was me.

This time it was me who had left you

And you didn’t understand

But you also never saw his smile

You never saw the way he’d look at me

The blood would rush to my cheeks 

And I had never felt so happy.

It was only then I had knew

How wrong it was to you

That before I went to far

I’d have to cut it off

Though you wouldn’t understand.

You wouldn’t understand how hard it was to leave you

Though I knew it was good for me

When I’d been living in so much misery

Drowning in your darkness

A sophisticated storm

You’d created all on your own

But I knew.

I knew things should never had ended the way that they did

And now I’m lying here wondering

‘How could this even be fair’

Though I’ve known it all along

That living in ‘enough’

Is what brings tragedy upon me.

Reviews

[Cyprian Van Dyke]

There is a lot of emotion in this write. It reminded me of the movie "heartburn" that came out in 1989. It taught me how some people are just not meant to be together. But that movie aside, this poem made me feel things. Wonderfully penned. Unless of course, I was reading the poem wrong?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lEAtAmbti80
Heartburn

[Jazzlyn B Barden]

I will never tell someone how to feel or interpret what I'm writing. I personally just started typing with my eyes closed exactly what I was feeling and came out with the rough draft of this and I don't think I could've wrote what I was feeling better if I'd tried. So you are quite possibly reading and feeling exactly what I was feeling when I wrote this. I'm glad this piece resonated with you:)

[Fran Marie]

you were right to leave
even though it may have
been difficult to do so
abuse by anyone is never
okay..some relationships
just cannot weather the storms
when bad feelings and raw
emotions are so overwhelming;

well penned