Forever Yours

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Forever Yours

thunder shakes loose the lightning 

rips apart roiling dark clouds and 

the rain pours down

the sagacity of her apophony astounds the most astute

her leisure hours spent to weary dowers 

they fall leaden at her feet

she skewers them on pikes

"Can't we get back the way it was? ... "  she said.

i couldn't speak

i was dumbed numb

it was the words

it was the presentation

it was all of that on steroid replay

hitting the mark ... constricting chest to throat

obstructing

                             words                                worlds

haven't the heart to toss it

perhaps just sell my lot and stock 

leave.

her breast wears  hard rocks

she filed away her pounding nails

while flailing at her skillet

drawing them out red hot and ready

her breath came rasped and rattled

and cursed her conscience battled

my defense badly mounted

cut short and pronounced

me

                                                                     helplessly guilty

helplessly guilty

You gave me everything then

You gave me no ...................thing

                                                                     the no thing was more

and you wanted me to follow you  .................. a real something 

some                            thing

tuning my ear with your bending strings and 

cry                                     cry                              cry

wanting money, your fame how you

try                                      try                              try

what about good bye?

04/06/2020

E.

Author's Note

Reviews

[Chris Shaw]

These lines speak to me of how people can find themselves on different pathways within a relationship. It sort of creeps up over you and then you realise that the person you thought you were perfectly in tune with has already left the building in spirit if not in body. It is a painful experience and I can feel the conflict here. You are worlds apart. Their values are not yours. When it gets to that stage, goodbye is the best solution. You can not live a lie. I felt the storm Mr E. It was raging, it was torture.

Chris

[Einstein Noodle]

thank you Chris :)

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Been there seen it done it 'E' and got the helmet. Love the way you extend the agony in the spacing and word choice here!

[Einstein Noodle]

ahahaha ..yes ..the extended agony of it all eh!? sorry to hear you been there my friend ... but .. alas .. most of us have at some time or another .. keep staying safe and well John .. thank you for reading and reviewing .. i appreciate it!
E.

[barleygirl]

Damn! You really know how to make your readers squirm! This is a pretty excruciating sideshow at the devastation of someone's whatever! Thank you for reminding me why I never got married. Being the youngest of 9, I got to see all those nasty splits haunting my older siblings, over their formative years & it was about as ugly as this, but I think you pumped the excruciation factor more in this version of s**t hitting the fan. I was very much feeling every badass inch of this one (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Einstein Noodle]

good friend .. so very gratified you felt all that torture plus ;)))))))))) given the scenario ... none of us should intermingle much at all eh!? yep ... this is an example of how it shouldn't be for sure ... you always triple bless me just by reading letting me know ... for you ... in this one ... there is a bit of rhyming tho :) so chuckling over "....devastation of someone's whatever!" ... perfect review just in that says i!? big hugs Barley Girl .... thanks always

[Fabian G. Franklin]

I like the sustained repetition in the piece underlining the details, particularly, the "helplessly guilty" because I think we may each and every one relate to that feeling thinking back on lost love or circumstance. On another note, I searched for your profile in the search engine here and it tells me your page does not exist. Something's not right with that. I finally just went back to your review and navigated back that way. Hope your day is wonderful. Cheers, F.

[Einstein Noodle]

thank you Fabian .. thanks for letting me know about the possible glitch .. not sure what to do about it .. not very computer savvy .. i'll try searching for myself and see what comes up ... did you search Einstein Noodle? ... and yes!! that line and feeling helplessly guilty is a swirling world isn't it .. or can be .. thanks for your thoughtful review my friend .. always appreciate your visits
E.

[Fran Marie]

When the the give
and take is not on
the same page the
relationship seldom
works out ..always wanting
more is a selfish attitude
when you give nothing in
return..but he won't leave
he's too involved hoping
desperately to rekindle
something..anything ..when
he really should realize it's
over..and a goodbye is in
order..nice work here Mr.E

[Einstein Noodle]

yep ... the goodbye seems a most painful thing but the reality of this poem is that not saying it is even more painful and in fact not healthy for either ;) so happy you are wandering around my pages Fran .. a fine treat for me!
E.

[Fran Marie]

Likewise a treat
for m e to read
your lovely verse
you re welcome

[Einstein Noodle]

:) ......................

[Coyote Poetry]

Sometime we find people seeking sameness for a second. Many people wanting everything and seeking more. Hard always seeking the door before the places of happiness. A goodbye is needed. Thank you my friend for sharing the amazing poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote

[Einstein Noodle]

Coyote Man! such a treat always when you visit my poetry .. i have been less active here but am getting back into my more "normal" routine now ... i agree ... we seek and hunger at that door of "happiness" ..when it does open to us .. we may be surprised .. in many ways eh!? love on ya man! so great to have your review! thanks so much!
E.

[Coyote Poetry]

I love your work my friend and you are welcome. I hope you are doing well.

[Einstein Noodle]

i am ... there has been little need for me to change my life's style in all this covid crapola ;) wishing you well too sir!

[JessyJacob]

Covid is gone, hope you are good and fine, seeing you to see you no more waiting. Cant see you in the song, wants to see you smiling.

[Einstein Noodle]

hmmmmmm interesting .. not sure i can agree about Covid .. it is a virus and a blight upon our lives .. i think it has taken it's place in line among all our other dire contagious diseases .. but, honestly ... i have thought of it as gone from the beginning .. but my reclusive lifestyle allows me such a position .. hope you are well .. thanks for commenting!

[JessyJacob]

I am fine, you are welcome.

[hayzed]

As much as the love story has taken a sour tune, I feel you still don’t want her gone. Nice piece

[Einstein Noodle]

thanks again man! i think you feel the dilemma ... we many times should say goodbye and don't ... for all kinds of reasons eh!? God bless!
E.

[Unspoken poet]

very intriguing write here, nicely written

[Einstein Noodle]

you are kind choosen ... thanks for taking time on me pages ... joy and comfort :)
E.

[AJNJ]

Some poems are like a movie on a 70 MM stereophonic screen, they play out so well in the reader's head. Like this poem, which is vivid, animated, colourful and lively! It revved up my imagination so well. Your portrayal is interesting and intense and so very amusing too. With her hard breasts and pounding nails, she is a master at skewering them! On a serious note sir, a relationship with a shrew can only go one way! Out the Exit Door! That is, if the poor guy so battered and cumbered with guilt can make iton his two feet! There are so many facets to your words here, a single reading won't be enough and I will definitely be returning for more. Kudos sir!

[Einstein Noodle]

thank you so much for this engaged read and review Pestonjee ... i don't recall meeting you before .. so doubly thanks for taking time ... yes .. lots of strong pulling in this one ;) "..poor guy so battered and cumbered with guilt can make it on his two feet!" makes me smile sir .. tho yes a tragedy ... i will come and visit soon .. signing off for now .. its me breakfast time ;) peace and joy ... stay well ... stay safe in this difficult time
E.
ps. nice to meet you!

[AJNJ]

I am newbie to the cafe sir :)
Joined just a few months back and started scribbling seriously just a few days back :))
It's great to have made your acquaintance here.
You are most welcome and the pleasure is all mine :)
Take your time here and do enjoy your breakfast.
Have a great day.

[Einstein Noodle]

well...welcome welcome welcome! for me this is a great place to write and read .. lots of styles, ideas and perceptions milling about .. many here are accomplished poets...some with teaching experience, education and some like myself .. without it ;) but i have learned a great deal from others here .. tho free verse is my "voice" the discipline of forms is a great foundation so i attempt them, with advice and help, from time to time.

[AJNJ]

Wonderful to make your acquaintance sir. Thank you for the information you shared about this site. No formal education in English literature myself! I'm a learner and always will be so it's great to be around all of you here and keep honing my words. I love both free verse and form and again I am a beginner. It will be great to read and be inspired by you :)

[emmajoy]

I wonder if we stood in the other person's place we'd feel differently. Gender's emotions can behave so cruelly, or is it the hidden hold on how to behave, how to be. We all change at times, places and faces, experiences and all influence us. or they do me. Listening or hasty responses alternate and can hurt or comfort. Here you've gone full out, perhaps embroidered or perhaps, just bled your feelings. If the other person had done the same, might the words be similar i wonder. Does excess love, wariness or even weariness enter the equation.. so much intrudes.. if we let it.. perhaps. Your words rip the air,
are tragedy personified..

[Einstein Noodle]

ohhhhhh you read this didn't you ;)))))))))) yes .. the other perspective may influence all things ... justified or not on either "side " of the coin ... you are the peace maker emmajoy ;) it is a tragedy .. no doubt about it .. and i think happens all the time .. i am personally insulated however .. by the forest :))))))))))))))))) love that you stopped by to read ..great review ma'am ..thanks so much!
E.

[emmajoy]

Of course I read, trying to reach into the writer' s reasoning. Can be quite difficult to decide if real or not, whether is a emotional fact or fiction. You however make things more complex than most.. creating heart founded language, not make believe stuff. I could be wrong.. but very much doubt it! :) Keep safe, Keep smiling.

[Einstein Noodle]

you are a wise one emma ... no doubt about it ;) such a pleasure and treat to share the Cafe'

[emmajoy]

Thank you. so much - you've just smiled my day!

[Travis Gibson (poetic h..]

That bewitching affect where a wonton woman makes concrete of our feet... This felt oddly familiar. Great piece!

[Einstein Noodle]

ahahah oddly familiar eh!? :)))))))))))))))) i'll bet it does :))))))))))))))))) it's age old isn't it Travis ... thanks for taking time .. love on ya .. peace and health!
E.