The race

A variation of thoughts

Ayo let me breathe on the track 

Let me go full flex 

Ima let ya know what's going on

This pain in my mind and my heart is getting to strong

I dont wanna deal with it 

I'm so smart I'm stupid 

Kuz I know what's wrong 

But I so tired I dont even wanna fight no more

My legs feel to heavy to move forward 

So what I do , pour another cup

Get my drink on

That brown water

That liquid toxin 

Alone in my own zone

I'm living in a different world , my own ozone

Clouded by smoke,  so my vision is blurry

I ain't looking for the end of the road 

I'm looking for the end of this here ,, stress and hurt

And this is where the picture gets twisted 

I know its gonna start some kontraversy 

But honestly 

It's out of my hands

I ain't got  the strength no more to stop it

And for those of yall who know me

I dont even f**k with this s**t

But I'm at the end of my rope

I just sniffed an 8ball  of cocacaine trying to numb myself and forget my feelings 

Man I don't wanna feel s**t

Now I got my heart racing 

See from my reflection,  my eyes dilated 

My mind is gone,, nascar,, off to the races

I'm thinking a mile a minute 

Where I fucked up and how it went wrong

If I could go back in time and change it all

I would!!!

But that's irrelevant, ,, that's a lost thought 

Ain't no changing the past

That's concrete,,, it was already written 

I ain't whippin the golorian

I ain't got dok ock on my side riding with me

But that clock still tickin

So I push the gas and keep speeding 

That's lap 1 

Is you staying with me???

Kuz lap 2 

Is gonna get a bit un-comfort-able

Plots of revenge 

Theories of treason,  what's the reason

S**T!!WHAT DID I DO??!?

You was my brovah, supposed to die for me,, that was the code

Why you trying to have me buried 

Scheming like an enemy 

I broke bread with ju

Gave you a place to rest your head

And this is how you pay me

No love loss , I understand 

Aint no loyalty in these streets 

Karma's a b***h Wardy 

It's a small world better god snatch you up before me

Kuz I ain't French 

Ain't no mercy

No por favor

You get what you getting 

Ain't no hole in the ground that you worthy of 

I would say more,,, but that's a spoiler alert

I wanna surprise you 

Kuz you my brother,,,, AND I LOVE YOU!!!

I suffer with you when the flames start to burn

We on lap 3

It's a bit more personal now