why?

Why?

 

 

 

“I love you” she use to say while we talked on the phone. We use to talk for hours and hours everyday, that is, before we broke up under horrible circumstances that still haunt me. It almost makes me wish we had never met…

Her name was Katelyn Gormley. We made a great couple. We actually met through a friend of mine, Dustin Draper; he had left her and felt bad, so he tried to find her someone new. I really did think it would last forever. That was naïve enough. She cheated on me, with my best friend of all things, and that is a terrible way to end.

After school one day, Dustin and me went right over to his house only across the street. He walked in the house and the phone rang right away. He ran into the living room to answer it. He answered and waited to see who it was. It was katelyn. He talked to her for a few minutes, and then he told her he had a weirdo over there to talk to her. I guessed he meant me.

I hesitated, but then took the phone out of curiosity.
Hello?” I started. “Hey,” she said shyly. We both were shy at our new meeting. We ended up talking for an hour before he cut me off and I had to go home. So we exchanged numbers and she promised to call me soon so we could talk more.

She did call me as she said she would. She called me that Friday night. We had many things in common. We talked for hours every day after that. We were dating by then and happy together. We finally made a date to see a movie one night. Everything was set and our parents knew each other and were all cool with us. My mom was taking me to her house for a bit then going to take us to the movies together.

We arrived at her place and she was outside playing basketball. She was beautiful. Kind and gentle seeming. She had black sunglasses and black hair and was very tall. She wore a black jacket and blue jeans with a hat that said the words “I hope so” on it. It was kind of amusing.

We saw each other a few times after that and just hung out and were together. She kind of lived far away so it wasn’t very easy to just go to her house. And of course we talked on the phone, which was all I ever did since she never wanted to get off of it with me.

We decided to go on a skating date to a roller rink near my house. Ti was settled that that Friday we would go. But a week before that she came over for her birthday and I gave her the gift I had for her and we hung out. But my best friend for years and my neighbor Cody was there with us. She seemed to take to him too well, though I thought nothing of it.

So we met the day of our date and I let Cody come along too just because he was like my best friend, why not? So we got there and not even like an hour of being there she had something to tell me. It turns out she had been cheating on me with my best friend and he knew we were dating and he still let her be with him anyways!

She told me she felt terrible and that I didn’t deserve her anyways. And she started to get real close and all over him while we were there even despite the fact she would rarely even hug me in our entire relationship. That hurt very bad. She told me about it since Cody treated her bad anyways and she figured might as well let me know.

She was suppose to be my ride home but after she told me she wouldn’t and I had to walk home alone in the cold at like midnight. That only gave me more time to reflect on how much I trusted her. From the dates we had been on, how many times we said I love you every day, hours on the phone, her smile, and then how it just ends. This story can’t even hold all the details of how we were and our happiness and then the sorrow she gave me and the heart shattering things that happened.

I was a very loyal and understanding person who could understand all the emotion, and I couldn’t understand that. She was my first real love and sometimes I still miss her. It’s been years and it seems almost that I’m still not over her. And I will never forget all this.

After that night we never spoke again. It was devastating to me to think, but I think it helped me become who I am today. Though no one said that was a good thing or a bad thing. I guess to say I owe a lot to her. I only wish I could give it to her what she deserves. Though no one said that that’s a good thing. After what she did I bet not? I hope someday I will be able to see her long enough to settle this and my memories. Just someday feel whole again even if that hole is filled with reparation…..